Oblivion (i) Lyrics

I've been living in oblivion

I've been wishing on stars that aren't even there anymore

In a hotel room, way out east

Leaving memories incomplete

I don't wanna write about you anymore

If I stay quiet, I will regret it, regret it, regret it

But I'm so bad at this shit

Staring at the ceiling again

Thinking how I told my friends about you

They sounded happier than I did

Because in my head

I know it's only a matter of time

Before I leave this behind

Fairytales that want nothing to do with me

Funny how my brain works

Telling me you were made for me

I'm just gonna get hurt

I rush too fast now

I waited too long

I can't hold back now

I can't hold back now

I've been living in oblivion

I've been staring right at the sun for answers

Answers, I know

It was your birthday, I ignored it

Don't wanna come off too strong

But I'm going about it all wrong

I need some answers, answers

I don't wanna grow up

Just to face the monster

I don't wanna come back down

I thought I had it all figured out, but here you are pulling me back

I thought I had it all figured out, so why the hell am I holding back?