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I really wish I knew how to feel

I no longer care if it's fake or real

Maybe if I pop just one more pill

Then I will

(Maybe I will)

Maybe one day I'll no longer feel guilt

Maybe one day my heart will heal

Maybe one day you will look at me the same way you that used to

Drive with my eyes closed

Hands off the wheel

Count up to ten

And that's how I close deals

Roll up this bill baby

You know the drill baby

You know I'm still crazy

Chill baby (chill baby)

Hotter the fire harder the steel

Live by the code die by real

Pockets fat gas tank stay filled

Whiskey chilled keep me chill

Am I drunk maybe a lil

But with (huh) head over heels

I just wanna know if there's

something worth to heal

Or to kill on the real

Self-destruct then rebuild

Hungry for the truth but next time I might skip the meal

Hungry still hungry still

Needing meaning not the mills

I'm not rushing to reveal

I'm not mental I'm just ill

I'm prepared to run this hill

But if I die or go to jail

Will you come and pay my bail

Or imma break out of my cell

Just don't tell I won't fail

I'm so nauseous and so pale

Grab the coffin get the nails

Tossing options wishing well

Hope you never feel how I felt

Still figuring out how to ask for help

Since we were young we grew up without

So now if you know then you know

There just some things we don't speak about

The realest move in silence the weakest links have the biggest mouths

If this all goes right then I might even put the bottle down

That would make my momma proud

Are you in or are you out

With or without

That's Unspoken

Yeah no doubt

I thrive under pressure the more sleep deprived the better

Bathroom stalls checking weather future me here is my letter

I hope this finds you in good health and now you know it does get better

(Better better better)

I really wish I knew how to feel

I no longer care if it's fake or real

Maybe if I pop just one more pill

Then I will

(Maybe I will)

Maybe one day I'll no longer feel guilt

Maybe one day my heart will heal

Maybe one day you will look at me the same way you that used to