old roots Lyrics

Sometimes I get way in over my head

And when I start to lose control, I panic

And when I've found a new object of affection

I start to grow insane and manic

My demons, my mood swings, my episodes do not define me

They don't define me, no

My crises, insecurities, try to take control

But I will never let them define me

So I will pull my roots out from the dirt

The toxic soil that infected my veins

And I'll regrow in a better place on this Earth

I'll break my convictions from their restraints

Oh everything I thought served me before

No longer serves me today

I'll make myself proud and I'll smile down

While I watch those old roots decay

Oftentimes I feel eyes drilled into my back

And I'll get crucified for any decision

Like I'm being analyzed under a goddamn microscope

And I have to move with precision

Tying my worth to society, but they don't know me

No they don't own me, no

I don't even understand myself, so how can they?

No I won't ever let others define me

So I will pull my roots out from the dirt

The toxic soil that infected my veins

And I'll regrow in a better place on this Earth

I'll break my convictions from their restraints

Oh everything I thought served me before

No longer serves me today

I'll make myself proud and I'll smile down

While I watch those old roots decay

The thoughts in my head can get so loud

That I tend to be a victim to the devil on my shoulder

I'm anxious that time is quickly running out

And that my cycles will continue even as I get older

But I'll take a deep breath and let it out

And force myself to stay planted in the ground

I wanna live for me

Honor your commitments to yourself, bubs

And the rest will honesty take care of itself

Some days you'll feel motivated and some days you'll feel less

But whatever it is, just keep striving

All my love

So I will pull my roots out from the dirt

The toxic soil that infected my veins

And I'll regrow in a better place on this Earth

I'll break my convictions from their restraints

Oh everything I thought served me before

No longer serves me today

I'll make myself proud and I'll smile down

While I watch those old roots decay

Yeah I'll watch them decay, oh

I'll make myself proud and I'll smile down

While I watch my old self decay