By The Grace Of... Lyrics

I know I'm not the only one

Who regrets some of the things they've done

I could swear it's only me can't stand reflections that I see

I wish I could just live a little more, look at the sky, and no, not just the floor

Feel like my life is flashing by, all I could do is cry

I miss my girls, I miss my friends, they chose the other side

I miss my mother, man, she used to be my P in crime

I keep on thuggin', but this really hurtin' deep inside

I miss when

Life was a party that had to be thrown

But that was

Back on some years a milli' ago

When I would

Wonder the streets where I found my feet

They can't even, look in my eyes, they type scared of me

I tried to, bring up some things, like jokes or a dream

But they don't recognize me, got fogged memory

And at the end of the day, I remain the same

And I cain't, switch up my steez, to rock with a lame

You not in my lane, you rottin' and decaying

You snottin up cane, use not enough brain

You not in my space, get popped in your face

Ain't coppin a case, y'all copin the same

He callin' you "twin" but sexin' your bae

And flex in yo face

It's hurtin' me more, to bottle the pain

And even though I waited for more, got less, and more pain

I'm gone, I gotta pack hit to deuce, for I go insane

But then again, my pen is the deuce, that bar was insane

You know I'm just sayin'

I said a prayer this morning

I prayed I will find a way

To another day

I was so afraid

Till you came and saved, you can and saved me

And the rain was pouring, cause the sun faded away

Now, I'm in a better place no longer afraid

Blinded by your grace, you came and saved me

First of all, let me give thanks to my mama

Independent, but the type to never deal with the trauma

Wasted time instead of healing, now she can't escape drama

Probably why she always heated, word to flame and the sauna

We was solid, but you let another come in between

Shut me out and birthed another, now we barely speak

Raised up your daughter, while I was a kid

I can't even kid, amazing provider, but L for an M

You get what I'm saying?

Damn, I can't even call my pops up

Bet you when I pop out, that's when he'll decide to pop up

Flippin' through pictures, I'm stuck just reminiscing

I got the vivid vision, singin', dancin' in the kitchen

Got both of my parents, somehow I still got the blues

Got both of them here, but still I cannot get through

I'm done with the trying, cause I'm tired, no SZA snooze

It's you who gon' lose, peepin' game, I got the views

Who is you?

I said a prayer this morning

I prayed I will find a way

To another day

I was so afraid

Till you came and saved, you can and saved me

And the rain was pouring, cause the sun faded away

Now, I'm in a better place no longer afraid

Blinded by your grace, you came and saved me