I'm A Mess Lyrics

Now

How many times I gotta tell you that I'm a mess

If

Time is the healing process I guess that I have spent

Too

Much of it looking for it like it had an address

But

Even if I had found it I think I would have left

And

Not even bothered knocking I'm too use to the stress

I

Feel like there's no stopping the demons in my head

I'm

Too lost into the moments I have nothing left

Yeah

I have nothing left

Yeah

I have nothing left

Even if I had something I think I would let go of it

That ain't me being drastic that's something that I'm sure of

It's

Too much for me at times I don't know how to learn from it

I am just a pessimist

Searching for an exit but It's somewhere in the distance

I could have been someone but I'm way too inconsistent

That's what they keep telling me

I'm lacking the energy

They want me to scream and yell

But I have nothing left in me

Is this what you came to see

Look into my E Y E's

Tell me that I'm going places

To be what I'm born to be

Is this what you want from me

Don't tell me it's destiny

If destiny ain't got a destination if it's part of me

I'm missing the heart in me

I feel it has parted me

In two different pieces

Like a circumflex artery

Maybe it's the art in me

Too much a perfectionist

I have lost the hunger but the thought of it is starving me

I

Keep myself out of the gossip but somehow it finds me

I let you into my circle only to remind me

Loyalty isn't something you'll always see in family

That is just a fallacy

Sitting in my room late nights

And I'm tossing and turning

Wondering why I feel I've been lost and deserted

Is it the pride in me

Really starting to weigh on me

I need to let go and let god take the wheel from me

I feel I've been heavily medicated

My life is at a stand still

Gazing in the sky asking god why am I here

Cold chills

Sweating from a two day binder

But the devil in my face

Only helps to remember

That I am lost

I am lost

I am lost

That's the trinity

Tell me what's the cost if the cause is my inner peace

Running out of time

While I'm running from my faith

Is it fate

Cause I feel I'm only running in place

I can't escape this

Feeling of misplacement

Feeling

I've been feeling

I've been feeling like I'm anxious

Searching for some changes

Happiness I'm chasing

But now I really wonder if It's real

Cause I really only know how to fake it

Running out of space for the hatred that you gave me

Is that hand to save me

Or is it to misplace me

I know that I'm losing it

I can never trust again

I guess I'm just too much of a mess

And I am used to it