All Black Lyrics

Just wasting away

Just wasting today

Just waiting to fade

Wasted not awake

One hell of a

Brain enema

A framed entrance of

Enraged chemicals

One hell of a

pretending run

no love left to give

No stamina

To be a whole

Is overrated

Who wouldn't rather

Be sedated

To be a whole takes work

So take the easy way out, lower your worth

Impregnated with the thought

Of always getting what I want

Integrated in my thoughts

You'd think I'd learn from all the lessons you taught

An ultimatum Premeditated on the spot

Slips through the seams

The problem isn't you or me

It's a lack of individuality

You're just a puppet to your thoughts

As they all tell you you're not

Making mistakes, that's just who you are

Responsibility means naught

You're just a slave to the chemicals you think will make you be whole

but you don't notice all the kids you hit when you drink and drive home

You got lucky a few times

But one of these days

Your impulsivity will catch up and bite the glands that feed

Here comes the mask again, please, somebody stop me

Stop acting like your impulses have ever been right

You've never even had a glimpse of clear sight

You just always want a fight

Never satisfied with a stable life

Stop selling yourself

Short

You let others determine your worth

And it'll get you only so so far

Until you're in the dark

Alone a formless blob of consciousness just

Waiting to mimic a partner

I hope you're okay

And i hope you're doing fine

And i hope whoever you're with now

Can toe the line better than i

And i hope you're happy when you find the man with no self respect

So you can treat him like the others but this time he will never call you on your shit

And i hope when you crush him he can better get you off his mind

Because every single day your face still crosses mine

And it's been so long the hate has faded, but attachment seems to stay

And i still dream of you at night just to write these songs during the day

But in the end you can't count on others

When they themselves are just as lost

But with you we were on an island

To pay the price seemed worth the cost

But no amount of help

Can save me now from drowning in the doubt

But at the very least maybe i can find

Another girl to write these songs about

But these songs are so old

I don't feel as bitter or upset

So instead of hating you

I've learned to blame myself instead

Because the bad was really bad

But the good kept me alive

And i just cant ignore what was

And keep the dark out of my eyes

And im writing this in winter

But im dreaming of the spring

And if im being truly honest

This is the worst i've ever been

A life without you is a waste

A life is lost, i cannot take

Another step, another breath

Another day standing in place