Numb ft. Accosta the Man Lyrics

I've survived through some ties that are very toxic

David Blaine in my stride so you couldn't box it

Knock it

Is something that you couldn't do

Ive been blessed wit a cool that you couldn't hide in suits

Been blessed wit some names you can call me Darrell

My life is Christmas Day I don't know a carol

Herald

Is a name that I try to dodge

Comfortable in plain sight my ego never tried to hide

My darker side kept me on a horror ride

Things that I did in the streets I never glorified

I'm surrounded by blood suckers and heat seekers

All while tryna keep some life in this deep freezer

You open my mind a bunch of meat cleavers

Broken dreams lost hope covered wit a dark Ceasar

I'm walking down the streets I don't hear my steps

I'm taking in the air but I don't feel my breath

I hear my brother spirit and it's feeling vexed

So I hold my head wit my hand like I don't need my neck

So when you see me tryna live better show respect

Cuz it's cheaper just to walk away then to mourn a death

What if I could tell Johnathan what Darrell feels

That he would sacrifice his youth to help pay some bills

That he would trade his future moves for his sisters views

But later down the line they would be outta tune

These are just some of the things living in my head

And the main reason why I still lie awake in bed

if Johnathan knew half of the things I had to do

Would he have the courage to master move wit half the view

I feel like our pop gave you a mercy ending

Cuz he knew he wasn't gonna raise you from the beginning

Don't feel bad there's a lot of broken hearts

Just keep in mind we was born with a broken start

What was needed I couldn't find in other ppl

What I found instead was lethal so I wrestle wit D'evils

I was forced to be numb for my own survival

Feelings dead on arrival so they told me read the Bible

I'm feeling like Solomon on an ottoman

And under me is the blood money that I profited

But I'm thinking Job way before his revelation

So when I say Dear God there's no hesitations

They say a child's future's tied to the naming

So I never stood a chance to prosper without proper shaming

I'm sorry to show the views you missed as a broken son

From the man who was living numb