Don't Know How To Feel Lyrics

Trying not to die

Trying

Trying

Never felt alive

Look at myself in the mirror every day

Tell me, fuck you, kill yourself, it's okay

Never thought that I would feel this way

But I guess my life wasn't perfect anyway, yeah

Learning how to deal with the pain every day

I'm talking to myself, seeming strange

Beside my self with the bad habits

And suicidal ways

I Need to make a change in the way that I'm living

Pick myself up and pursue my vision

Get held back by alcohol, so I need to get back on track

But I'm stuck in my ways, I'm soaking in pain

Cause I'm drowning in my sorrow

Praying and hoping I won't see tomorrow

Praying that I drink to the bottom of the bottle

But the only time I feel okay is when intoxicated

I've gone in circles

I think I'm crazy

My minds gone wild

And I don't know why

The world is silver and I am broke

Tryna stop the pain but I'm incapable

Kinda thought that I'd be dead by now

Don't know how to feel

Don't know how to live

Been suicidal ever since I was a kid

Came out from nothing to something amazing

Thankful for the family and the friends I have

Been through tough times, hoping it pass

Living the best even though I'm depressed

Rise up and tackle what's next

Trying to stay happy even though I'm stressed

Focus on the future, not the past

Been through tough times, rough lives

But we gon' make it out alright

Took the pills and tried to kill myself at night

Wake up the next morning and I'm alive

Fein for the bottle, stepping on the throttle

Late night drive to numb the pain

It never stays away, I hate myself every day

Don't know how to feel, yah

Don't know how to feel, feel

Don't know how to feel, yah

Don't know how to feel, feel

Tired of Feeling this way every day

I wake up in the morning hoping life's okay

I tell myself let's make it a good day

But sometimes I wanna shoot myself in the brain

I can't stand the way that the world works these days

Why does having life meaning having to pay

Can't tell who real or fake everyday

I think to myself, are you a snake

I'm stuck in situations that make or break

Situations that make my core shake

I'm trying so hard to hold on but it's getting harder everyday

I'm awake