Laughing & Crying Lyrics

I wanna be there with you, but I cannot bear the truth

I'm workin' too hard, I crash out like Bandicoot

That's what chasin bands will do, I blink and there's tears in my eyes

I really wanna know why, so I take a look in the sky

What is the purpose of being here, why am I even alive

Would anyone care if I died? But you know I would never try

These are the thoughts that runnin' through my brain, time after time after time

Shake it off, get back to boss shit, gettin' faded and I cross it

Hit a home run, that's a long hit

Flowin' like current in ocean, makin' noise, I just be caught in commotion

Doin' this and that and they didn't notice, not really carein' cause they really bogus

Yeah, they is

Aye, this and that ain't free, I know that fosho

Yeah, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, you ready, let's go

Yeah, I get way too fucked up sippin' on Patron

Yeah, the cops is out tonight, I see they on patrol

So there ain't no way that you can catch me drivin' home

I be zooted up and booted, I be slidin' while I'm glidin

Laughin' same time I be cryin', prayin' to God I ain't dyin

Greasy bitches get to fryin', I'm just tryna put the time in

I ain't never really lyin', dressin to fly, I'm the flyest

Bitch

One thing I know for sure is I gotta row my boat until it is overflowed

Overload with money, peso, euros, I need a lot of those

Comatose, I hope I don't overdose and then I become a ghost

Drivin' way too fast, I'm doin' 100 in a 44

And I don't know where to go, so I be spendin' time in my mind

Sittin back chillin and I don't know why

Give me a sign, give me an answer

I am a Virgo, no, I'm not a cancer

I am a singer, but I'm not a dancer

Sippin' on H20, no, not no Fanta

I like to talk, but I don't like to banter

I wanna work until I get the bands up

I make them jump up, make them put they hands up

Hustlin' hard till I get me the Benz truck

She sing my song and say this is her anthem

JP, I don't think they ready

I was a lost boy, now I'm found

Slowly risin' up outta the ground

Still got demons, they on the prowl

Like a dead dog, I'm puttin' them down

Fee-fi-fum, we comin' in loud

We go dumb if it needs to go down

Like happy madison , I'm grown up now

Black eyed peas go boom, boom, pow, yuh

Pain in my eyes, I got hurt

I still be goin' berserk

Black on black Audi a vert

Feelin' like Lil Uzi Vert

Walkin' around with no shirt

Feelin' like I am the shit

But I'm still feelin' like shit

Tell me what the fuck is this

How am I supposed to live

To my haters, you can't phaze me

Cause I already hate myself

I'm too player, you can't play me

Cause I already played myself

Look at the pictures on the wall

Can't believe I really blame myself

If you can't tell, my mind is always racin

But I wont erase myself

I just wanna have some peace

I wanna go to the beach

I wanna sing on some beats

Stickin' to it just like cleats

Lord, take away my grief

Not entertainin' no beef

Want my money, fat like obese

I want the dairy, want the cheese