ADDICTION Lyrics

I'm too young to be this jaded

I'm too old to be this mad

Make mistakes and get frustrated

I'm too young to be this sad

I don't need words of wisdom

I know that there's a limit

I'm no stranger to addiction

So sometimes just quit it

The more you tell me no

The more my habits grow

Reaching for another bottle

Drink until I start to wobble

Take pills to feel alive

And with others I know they've died

Were more stupid than I am

And you're afraid that I am

Gonna end up the same

But at the end of the day

Who is really there to say

We'll all see tomorrow's face

It's not promised now is it

And you say I'm trying to fit in

That's the farthest thing from the truth

I'm trying my hardest to quit this

And each time I look in the mirror

I'm fucking drugged up

Hate what I see when I'm sober

Would rather stay fucked up

Only time I love myself

Is when I don't know myself

To my son and daughters

I hope that I'm there to tell you about myself

Once I get to feeling well

Come back into your lives

I hope you'll see the pain in my eyes

I love you guys

I'm too young to be this jaded

I'm too old to be this mad

Make mistakes and get frustrated

I'm too young to be this sad

What up, mom

I can't see you, I can't hear you

What the fuck, mom

You can't see me, you can't hear me

What the fuck, mom

And you thought you were so strong

You couldn't die of some, but you were dead wrong

They said I'd feel the pain later

Two years and all I feel is anger

Should have died a mom and not a stranger

Your obituary in the paper was true

It sparked a lot of hate, but fuck all of them too

And all these years later, I'm becoming like you

The apple doesn't fall from the tree

The saying is true

And all these things I'm mixing are dangerous

Woo, yeah

And I'm just so fucking enthused

I look over here and I want to try that

Then I think about you and then I fight back

The urge to follow through with any plans that I have

Is taken away, so I wear a broken mask

Yeah, born with it

In my system so symbolic

I'm so twisted

Just like you it's so violent

I hate living

Because of you

I'm so different

Not in a good way

Makes every day feel

Like a game of scrimmage

I fucking hate it

Every day my head racing

I try patience

They try me, I ain't winning

I get faded

Just to try and slow it down

I get wasted

Just so I can fucking pass out

I get so depressed

That I try to kill myself

And dad ain't like that

So I gotta blame you

If it ain't that, I guess we gotta catch 22

You're the one with the issues, so it makes sense too

Just saying what I gotta say

Gotta get it out my brain

Gotta get it out my way

It's taking up too much space

I ain't mad at you

I'm just disappointed

Don't know if you can hear me or not

Just want you to know that

I'm too young to be this jaded

I'm too old to be this mad

Make mistakes and get frustrated

I'm too young to be this sad