Silent Pain ft. J.D Philo Lyrics

Ay, Jake, they don't even know what type of pain I'm in, bro

This that silent pain type shit

What'd I do to deserve this, man

Everything getting to me now, even worse than before

It's all good, though

I'ma keep my head high

Let's just get to it

Staydown, Jay

What the fuck I do? I did it right, I did it all for them

Making me an enemy, they mad cause I'm a hidden gem

For they life I hurt, my heart at risk, an amputate a limb

Okay, I did it all for you, wasn't on no bullshit

Listened to your pain on that call while I hidden mine

Giving you that love and that hug that I wish was mine

Saying it's gon' be okay, don't even know I scream inside

Helping everyone when they need it, I was thrown the wolves

Giving out the love that I wish I had

Crying out for help, I feel a vibe then I say my bad

Dealing with some trauma, you are too, but I'm the one that's sad

I'm talking bout the pain, nobody listen, I'm alone for real

Daydream about the past, it's embedded in my brain for real

Work nine to five to keep their thoughts at bay

Nobody give a fuck, well, that's my thoughts today

Talking to the mirror, that's my only friend

One day you look back at me, seeing evil, well, that's the end

Real shit

They don't even know how much pain I'm in, it's silent

They only see the pain when I hurt them and it's violent

They don't know about that silent pain

When you go through shit and you just hold it down

You smiling, laughing

Nobody know for real

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Silent pain

Philo, talk your shit slim

Yeah, I wanna give you benefit of doubt, I really do

I've been through things I now can't live without and that's the truth

A hidden gem, carrying all this weight behind a mask

But I'm green with jealousy because you never lived my past

There's a love that I was starved of for quite some time

That I now give to you because I wish that it was mine

At 22, I'm just now realizing what it was

That made me shrivel up whenever I would get them hugs

It's that feeling in your chest

Like butterflies flying in the sky, that it got me

I'm on a never-ending quest

Cause the person in the mirror won't acknowledge my request

It's the silent pain, hidden underneath the jokes

Makes me listen too hard, when I get angry I explode

That's me celebrating vain, been through torment from my brain

But you notice when I change cause the vibe don't feel the same

Believe me when I say that I'm okay

I've been dealing with this every day

Today's another page in my diary

It's tiring, laying in my bed

I've been pondering and wandering

That line that can make my family cry

Damn it, I could use some love

Can a nigga get a hug

Thought that I could thug this out

But I need me a way out

Said I need me a way out

Yeah

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