To All The Women I Loved Lyrics

Feelings change

Memories begin to flood

Of who we used to be

But I'm entering a new age

Writing memoirs

Entries in my story that I misjudged

But I keep revisiting each old page

A message

To all the women I loved

I've been holding on to nothing

And you don't give a fuck

Hardest part I'm learning is

That I'm not enough

Hatchets unearthed we meant to bury

It wasn't supposed to end like this

We were meant to last

Or so it felt after the first kiss

Fairy tale shit

But I'm no Prince Charming and you're no princess in distress

Olive branches engulfed in flames

No matter how far they stretch

I can't change you

And you can't save me from myself

Feelings change

Memories begin to flood

Of who we used to be

But I'm entering a new age

Writing memoirs

Entries in my story that I misjudged

But I keep revisiting each old page

A message

To all the women I loved

Our love was clouded with pain

Death was frequent as Seattle rain

I couldn't take it all away no matter how hard I tried

And that ring on your finger couldn't keep you with me

Especially after our little one passed

Dreams of a family went up in smoke

Shit still weighs heavy on me to this day

Even now after seeing how far you've come

Maybe I'm selfish, maybe I'm meant to pay

But I run from responsibility like the moon from the sun

Feelings change

Memories begin to flood

Of who we used to be

But I'm entering a new age

Writing memoirs

Entries in my story that I misjudged

But I keep revisiting each old page

A message

To all the women I loved

I think all the trauma knocked a screw loose

So I took a noose and hung myself on you

I was desperate for love and all you showed me was compassion

So I got addicted and tried to increase you in doses

Even though deep down I knew it was hopeless

Convinced myself our love wasn't precocious

Now I'm feeling atrocious

Having such a wide range of emotions

Feelings change

Memories begin to flood

Of who we used to be

But I'm entering a new age

Writing memoirs

Entries in my story that I misjudged

But I keep revisiting each old page

A message

To all the women I loved

When I met you, I wasn't looking for love

But what I had wasn't enough

Broken situations

Lead to new ambitions

But elsewhere your passion lies

Which is why I wrote Butterflies

About how no matter how hard I tried

They keep dying on the inside

For someone who doesn't have me in mind

Somewhere, I got lost along the way

In all the build up I created

But now it's time for me to go for real

I have to give you up

Yeah I'm a fuck up

I can admit that now

I'm sorry

For everything I couldn't be

The man I wasn't ready to be

The happily ever after, I dreamed of giving you

Broken promises I couldn't deliver you

Yeah…

I guess, all I have left to say is

I'm sorry…

To all the women I loved….