HIGHNLONELY (i'm not okay) Lyrics

I'm not okay

I've been everywhere but my room and I don't know what to say

It's just somewhere in my brain, it just feels like no escape

It's so hard to quell the pain without you

You can find me in my room in the dark, I'm feeling high and lonely

Searching high and low on my own, just for my one and only

And every word I say, shrouded echoes in the haze

Adding sugar to the pain, makes it easier to take

You can find me when I'm out in the dark, I'm feeling high and lonely

Blurring pictures depart, I lose heart, don't even try to know me

I give more than I take, apathetic till I break

Sweeten life until I bake, help me swallow all this hatred

I'm lost at sea while stuck in a room, I'm floating by

But I don't know if this ocean's my tomb, I'd rather drown

In the endless abyss, I'm at bliss, through all this choppiness

I'm probably not stopping this, can no one build my confidence?

I try to fill the void with some light, but I'm at peril of

The consequences turning me blind, I can't be scared of it

Every time I look in your eyes, I feel the light shine

Instead inside of me

For just a second, I'm afraid of my nerves, getting frayed till they bleed

I stay on my knees, I build bridges so they'd make one to me

I try so hard to stay stable and free

What's the point if they're all happy, if they're happy without me?

You can find me in my room in the dark, I'm feeling high and lonely

Searching high and low on my own, just for my one and only

And every word I say, shrouded echoes in the haze

Adding sugar to the pain, swallow madness till I break

You can find me in my room in the dark, I'm feeling high and lonely

Fearful of the room in my heart, as if they tried to know me

I've been told to sit and wait, I stay quiet for my sake

Shrouded eyes but I'm awake, I'm too loud inside my brain

You can find me in my room in the dark, I'm feeling high and lonely

Different guy you knew from the start, this one's all sad and homely

And every sin he makes, load the pressure till he breaks

The results still stays the same in the end, he's feeling high and lonely