Hate Myself Lyrics

It's strange how you can be surrounded by people

Yet feel like you're trapped in a room with just a mirror

You see everything you hate staring back at you

But no one else can see it or maybe they choose not to

In the quiet of the night when the world is fast asleep

I'm left alone with shadows that I'm too afraid to keep

They whisper in my ear secrets I don't want to know

But they know me better than anyone could ever show

Why do I always find myself lost in the grey?

Fighting with a ghost that I can't push away

And I

I hate the way I am

But I can't run from this man

Hate hate myself

Even when I try to stand

I just fall back down again

Oooh-oh oooh-oh no end

Every mirror's like a window to a world that I can't bear

Filled with broken pieces of the self I tried to spare

I wear a mask so carefully to hide the pain I feel

But it cracks and shatters revealing what is real

Why do I always find myself caught in the storm?

Drowning in the rain where it's cold but it's warm

And I

I hate the way I am

But I can't run from this man

Hate hate myself

Even when I try to stand

I just fall back down again

Oooh-oh oooh-oh no end

But maybe there's a way through the darkest part of me

To find a sliver of light where shadows can't see

But the truth is I'm scared of who I'll become

If I peel back the layers will I find anyone?

And I

I hate the way I am

But I can't run from this man

Hate hate myself

(Myself)

Even when I try to stand

I just fall back down again

Oooh-oh oooh-oh no end

But I

I hate the way I break

Crushed by the weight

Too much to take

Hate hate this fate

Even when I try to mend

I just come undone again

Oooh-ohhh ooooh-ohhh no end

We're all just fragments of a whole that we'll never fully understand

But maybe… just maybe… if we stop hating those pieces

We'll find the strength to be whole again