The Wounded Lover (interlude) Lyrics

How you gone but I still feel I still feel yo here

Everywhere I turn I see your picture clear

I tried get you back cause of my future fears

That I won't find willing to work for better years

Already on the sticks just need a player two

And if we go down revive me and I'll revive you

And If you slide for me you know I'll ride for you

Like that dude and his dog punching a kangaroo

That just some funny shit but all jokes aside

I want a plan for the future with you by my side

But that ain't gone happen I've come to term inside

I guess I'll cool with that as long as you just give me time

I know I ain't got a choice I still gotta calm my mind

That's not so easy to do when my thoughts won't step aside

I still ain't tame the monster that is my conscious mind

I just put on a good show for those who nearby

So everytime I met a pretty girl with the qualities of the only women I feel has ever loved me I instantly latched to them Subconsciously telling myself to do whatever it takes or whatever is necessary

You see I started to let the ends justify the means

And every single time it really fell like I was falling in love with this women who in reality was just a figment of my dreams

Because in Limerence what I'm doing is projecting everything I wished this person was on to them

So instead of seeing them for who they really are

I'm being selfish and only seeing them for who I want them to be

I'm ignoring there flaws and say well no one's perfect

I stay up at night rewriting her story to explain her actions

So then my next step should be away from you

Cause that's the cycle of this shit and I been overdue

Four bar WiFi connection when I connect to you

Service been disconnected cause I been forced to move

I been tryna answer this question I think I got a clue

I got attachment issues and I guess that my vice

Pair that with hyper independence I can't get it right

No matter what hand I use I can't get a grip on life

I'm either doing too much or not enough

I'm either looking for myself or being sometimes ones crutch

I mean fighting for someone who's already given up

I'm sick of this shit I swear I've had enough

And I know they gone say my nigga you still young

You should be out here partying not worried bout love

And shit you might be right, so yea I might just listen

Cause I still ain't found a cure for this here heart condition

And I deluded myself into believing that all of this is ok

And that is because I'm a giver she abuses my compassion

When really I just don't think any of these women ever actually fucked with me

And now I wonder if there was anything that I've ever felt for these women was based in reality

Or was it just the shit that I made up about them in fantasy

Because they say you really only Limerence with people who reinforce your core beliefs of inadequacies

I wonder if I have ever had a genuine connection with anyone

Or has every romantic feeling in my life just been a lie

So I could continue to actively ignore the issues that I have in my life

Honestly I'm not sure

But I guess I just need to grow some more

And hope my taste in women grow with it

Poem.