CRAZY NOW Lyrics

Lately i been feeling crazy

Tellin myself daily

Baby you ain't trippin

You right where you supposed to be

I been saying no to bookings

Even when it's requested by friends

Cause bein cool ain't puttin food on my table

That's real shit

Can't keep giving everything that i worked for for free

Can't keep fuckin on that nigga that don't do shit for me

He don't check if I'm okay

He don't even make me cum

But im sup'posed to let'em slide once a month

And come get some

That shit is stupid

I'm too precious to be treated like i'm average

I'm too deeply loved by God to be out here feelin abandoned

I'm too strong and I'm too powerful to let my mental break

I'm too real to let'em steal my light for something fake

I been doin this shit too long to sell myself short

But i ain't been doin it long enough to let myself burn out

So i guess it's time for no's cause i can't align below my standards

Believing in the woman I'm becoming know my worth now

And everybody ain't gon get it

But the ones who feel me feel it

My heart is made of gold

If they question that then I'm chillin

Cause im cool off tryna prove who i am

Come with the check or please don't come again

And it's the same with datin

Fuckin talkin whatever it is

Just cause you cute don't mean we fuckin

Just cause I like you don't mean I'll hit

I don't doubt my intuition she can spot the worst bitch

That's my partner , that's my wife she gotta like you first then

I can consider lettin you take me somewhere nice

Consider lettin you kiss the sweetest lips of ya life

I'm fallin deeper in my void

I can remember now

So everyday feel like the 7th of December now

I been talkin to deities

I been listenin to storms

I been feeding my Temple

I been actin out the norm

Cause the norm was below me

And Source put me on a flight

Away from all of bs tryn hold me back in life

Now I been dancin with spirits

And sayin no to my friends

Tastin the waves in my portal

Blessin the hands kept me fed

Looked at myself and i said

So i guess I'm now what they call crazy

Oh so I'm crazy now

Cause i got standards

Cause i let you go

Cause i told you no

Cause I talk to trees

Cause I talk to the dead

Cause I'm choosing me

Well fuck it I'll be crazy

I guess I'm crazy now

I don't know like

I was telling my friends that um

I feel like I've been saying No so much

And then I've been like feeling iffy about it

Like weird like damn did I miss out on an opportunity

Did I miss out on a relationship or

I don't know like just this fear of missing out

And while I have that fear

I also have this feeling of like no I know

I know what I'm worth

I know what's out there

I'm capable

What I'm capable of

I know what I can manifest

I know what I see for myself

So I'm in this like consistent limbo of like

Damn like am I crazy

But I know I'm not crazy like

I know, God gave me the visions they gave me

For a reason

And made me not cool with the shit

They made me not cool with for a reason

And I feel like I'd rather feel crazy

And try to ground myself in what part of me feels

In their bones they know to be true

Than to do the norm or do

Or do what I used to do

And feel fucking stupid.

I'd rather be crazy than stupid

Yea

Oh so I'm crazy now

I'll be crazy

Guess I'm crazy now