War With Myself Lyrics

I sit alone in a room with the lights off

Stuck in my own train of thought I'm feeling so lost

Somehow I landed in a depressed state

Feeling higher than heaven's gates

Can you relate

Cause on the outside I feel like I'm straight but inside there seems to be a debate

To understand everything that's at stake

But second guessing every thought you make

I need to escape

So here I am with just a pad and a pen

Seeking your words, trying to battle my sins

Sometimes I struggle and that's where it begins

The worst part, it's the battle within I feel I never can win

Avoid mirrors, trying not to pretend

The face I'm looking at is not my friend

It's a lose-lose either way, so I'm on the defense

I'm hiding all my imperfections again It's a battle within

Lord forgive me, I feel them dark forces near me

I've grown weary, Lord hear me

I sincerely, pray severely

I speak in theory, trying to deal with all my problems insecurely

But struggling really, and I don't know how to explain it any more clearly

They say depression will control me

I feel I'm slipping

I say depression can't hold me

I may be tripping

I pray and hope that you can show me

What may be missing

Before you judge, make sure you know me

I may be different

So here I am with just a pad and a pen

Seeking your words, trying to battle my sins

Sometimes I struggle and that's where it begins

The worst part, it's the battle within I feel I never can win

Avoid mirrors, trying not to pretend

The face I'm looking at is not my friend

It's a lose-lose either way, so I'm on the defense

I'm hiding all my imperfections again

It's a battle within

You can see it from the scars and scrapes

Of salvation in these bars to escape

Sometimes it's hard to get out of that space

Where I'm feeling like I just might break

Thank God for faith, sometimes I feel like I'm at war with myself

Forget the demons, they can fend for themselves

Torn between what can hurt me or help I turn to you because there's nobody else

Nobody else

So here I am with just a pad and a pen

Seeking your words, trying to battle my sins

Sometimes I struggle and that's where it begins

The worst part, it's the battle within I feel I never can win

Avoid mirrors, trying not to pretend

The face I'm looking at is not my friend

It's a lose-lose either way, so I'm on the defense

I'm hiding all my imperfections again It's a battle within