I can't stand to be a witness

To agony

I can only offer up myself

To take all your hell

You need to love yourself

Over the years we lost

So many tears on the carpet floor

Just like a slow pain

I watch as it absorbs

Till I'm soaking through

Overflowing

I will bare your dread

Lay it on my shoulders

Let all your pain end

Leave it here my friend

Hold me, I'm barely even breathing

I've given in, I want to know

Is there anything better than that reparation

For every living thing

I'm always trying to see

Life in someone else's tree

To feel the leaves they bear

And bravely shed each year

The veins that course with fear

All the anxious and despaired

Every whisper to your ear

Saying death is near

Tell me what you know about

Weight these weary bones have carried

Carried for so long

I'd sooner cut my heart out

To keep the feelings gone

I remember

All the trauma introduced

Our hands become the noose

Or the tools for breaking through

Hold me, I'm barely even breathing

I've given in, I want to know

Is there anything better than this?

Cause I'll believe it, when I see it

There's blood on your hands

And I'm not so innocent either

On and on

It always comes

To take me out

And fill my heart

With this pain again

Sometimes I just wanna feel nothing

Nothing at all

Sometimes

I just wanna feel

Nothing

I just wanna feel

Nothing at all

But I chose to carry on

Finding a source of light to guide me

Find my way home

To the garden inside me