Forgive Myself Lyrics

I could make myself feel smaller

So that you could steal the light

I could try a little harder

To not cry myself to sleep at night

I could put on a front

Act like I'm fine

Pretend you're the one

Believe all the lies I could

Forgive you

God, I hate that I miss you

I could be the one to check your boxes

Never be the first to start a fight

Got so close and then we lost it

I could get there if I tried

If I put me down to put you first

Forget how much it made me hurt

I could forgive you

But I can't forgive myself

Wasting days

We sat beside the ocean

Painting waves

I thought my eyes were open

We went up in flames

Hometown doesn't feel the same

Old friends bringing up your name

No but it won't change

I could be the one to check your boxes

Never be the first to start a fight

Got so close and then we lost it

I could get there if I tried

If I put me down to put you first

Forget how much it made me hurt

I could forgive you

But I can't forgive myself

Miss the way your hands feel on my body

Miss the way you said you want me

Miss the way you make me feel that shit

At least I could be part of it

Oh, oh

Oh, if I could forgive myself