Pain Lyrics

Living a lie for so long

I feel so wrong

I'm not myself

I've been so gone

House ain't no home

I'm not so strong

Holding this in

I can't hold on

Nights I don't sleep

I feel lonely

So many days

Days I won't eat

Tears y'all don't see

I just want peace

Dealing with pain

Pain that don't leave

I've been weak and I've broken

But never showed it

Makeup on my bruises that's just the unspoken

I been feeling clueless I been losing focus

I don't know what to do and I hope she doesn't notice

Lord knows you can look in my eyes see what I'm facing

That's why I look around and down in the conversations

I decide to hide cause I cried from the complications

They told me keep my eyes on the prize and I thought of Jason

Momma say you gotta trust that process

Praying for a life where I feel I'm blessed

Life eating me alive and it won't digest

Satan working overtime and that's my guess

I feel like I'm targeted

Everybody's a part of it

Cause everybody showing they true colors that's the art of it

Lately I ain't been feeling loved ain't no heart in this

I knew from the jump I shouldn't have started it

Living a lie for so long

I feel so wrong

I'm not myself

I've been so gone

House ain't no home

I'm not so strong

Holding this in

I can't hold on

Nights I don't sleep

I feel lonely

So many days

Days I won't eat

Tears y'all don't see

I just want peace

Dealing with pain

Pain that don't leave

I think it's time to bite the bullet

Tryna bottle up everything that's what I'm good at

I told myself I would try I knew I wouldn't

Runaway and start a new life I know s houldn't

What should I do I need advice and all

This can't be life cause this ain't nice at all

Demons turning our fights to brawls

Smile during the day but at night I ball

Hennessy and redbull got me in so much trouble

Miss 100 percent of shots you don't take

So I take double

Situation got my hands tied when I'm tryna jungle

Bring peace back in my life and solve the puzzle

I'll admit it that I cry sometimes (I Cry)

I'll admit it that I've been so blind (Been so blind)

I'll admit it that I crossed the line (I crossed the line)

Hate to admit it but it crossed my mind

I know these conversations is making you thinking less of me

Respect trust love and loyalty is the recipe

You can say what you want it's a necessity

You only see the fresher me when life getting the best of me

Look good feel good

That's what they say

My brother promised everything gon' be okay ay

Through the valley you gotta walk through it brave

My daddy told me don't let that stand in your way ay

Living a lie for so long

I feel so wrong

I'm not myself

I've been so gone

House ain't no home

I'm not so strong

Holding this in

I can't hold on

Nights I don't sleep

I feel lonely

So many days

Days I won't eat

Tears y'all don't see

I just want peace

Dealing with pain

Pain that don't leave

I'ma keep running even though my ankles broke

Ima keep punching even though my back against the ropes

Ima keep trucking even though it ain't no road

And I'm keep hunting while I aim for hope

Ima keep running while my ankles broke

Ima keep punching while my back against the ropes

I'ma keep trucking when it ain't no road

Cause ima keep hunting while I aim for hope