Losing Faith Lyrics

I've been losing faith

In my self as of late

I been reminiscing

On missing those days

I been in my bag

And my feels

Yeah I'm back to my

Old ways, my old ways

I told you all

That I "don't need it"

But in my mind

I have conceded

Defeat to this drink n'

Maybe I could change

Is what I have been

Endlessly thinkin'

I'm stuck in my past

Take a deep breath

Before I get lost

In the deep end

The ocean in motion

I'm tossed overboard

As I reach for the surface

I'm sinkin'

I'm tossed overboard

As I reach for the surface

I'm sinkin'

Sinkin'

Sinkin'

I been lost inside my mind

Hide behind these bars like I'm

Doing twenty five to life

I'm not fine no

Overwhelmed with

Zealous thoughts of mine

Like a hoe tryna

Hop on my line

I'm in solitary confinement

In my mind

And I am not thriving

Diving into more darkness

Than brightness

Driving on a road

With no signs and

I don't even know why

I've been trying

Drown myself in the drink

Till I'm dyin'

Turning my brain to autopilot

Wake up in the morning

Hearing cryin'

Wondering why if

I want to get better then

Why I don't try it

"AA couldn't save me"

I keep on telling me

I'm basically waiting

To ruin everything

By puttin' my addictions

Above everything

Can you relate to me

Can you relate to the

Mess I made

All of the pain that's

Inside my brain

Wondering why I

Stay this way

I don't know

But I can not change

Hopelessly

I ride these waves

And giving up it just

Feels so strange

Still rather pour a glass

Than feel this pain

I just know that I am insane

Can't even change

My fucking ways

Been feeling clueless

Every day

All this time

Only learned one thing

I've been losing faith

In my self as of late

I been reminiscing

On missing those days

I been in my bag

And my feels

Yeah I'm back to my

Old ways, my old ways

I told you all

That I "don't need it"

But in my mind

I have conceded

Defeat to this drink n'

Maybe I could change

Is what I have been

Endlessly thinkin'

I'm stuck in my past

Take a deep breath

Before I get lost

In the deep end

The ocean in motion

I'm tossed overboard

As I reach for the surface

I'm sinkin'

I wake up in the morning

Bathroom mirror full of

Broken glass

Makes me wonder why

I even chose to pour

Another glass

Cuts all over my hand

Making me feel like a

Total ass

I must of seen some demons

Throwing hands with my

Fucking past

Facts

I can't get away

Only problem with my drinkin's

When the bottles drained

Cause then I'm left with nothing

That'll numb this fucking pain

Cirrhosis of this liver

Will put me in a fucking grave

Ay

Man I feel deranged

I tried to find myself but

Realized we've become estranged

I grab this bottle by the neck

Like I reached 3rd base

And chug it down until

I've woken up the next day

I recognize I've done enough

To let you all down

I look into the broken mirror

Feelin' like a clown

All I'm missing is the makeup, nose

And the shoes now

I'm so sorry to those of you

That I have let down.

I've been losing faith

In my self as of late

I been reminiscing

On missing those days

I been in my bag

And my feels

Yeah I'm back to my

Old ways, my old ways

I told you all

That I "don't need it"

But in my mind

I have conceded

Defeat to this drink n'

Maybe I could change

Is what I have been

Endlessly thinkin'

I'm stuck in my past

Take a deep breath

Before I get lost

In the deep end

The ocean in motion

I'm tossed overboard

As I reach for the surface

I'm sinkin'

I'm tossed overboard

As I reach for the surface

I'm sinkin'

Sinkin'

Sinkin'