Y Not (Only A Comdown) Lyrics

You're gun's jammed again

Though you planned against another malfunction

Shooting at those stars again

Far and so hard to hit from that junction

You could go left or right, end is in sight but both sides look aimless

Don't know what to tell you bro, dreams keep us up

(why else should we chase them?)

But how were they supposed to know?

That that boy who scarcely hoped

Would one day barely cope with those demons

I held on tight to let it go

The grass ahead may grow but the grass behind looks greener

(Something's always going wrong, never knew where you belong)

A black sheep that's been bleached white

(Past is always out of reach, dreams they don't fall at your feet)

There's only so many rewinds

Most nights I take meds to get to bed but they can't cleanse or end this regret

It's only cos we went so hard last night that's these thoughts are in my mind like

I'm drunk off words unsaid

See now I got me down

Don't want this in my head

Sometimes it won't get out

Thinking of those days

Why it's 4 in the morning now

All my mates are yawning now

I am off my face

And whatever I gave up

In some ways never left

It's like they've all been saved up

To cluster fuck my head

I worked so hard I came up

But my flag sits unplanted now

Reached my peak to go throw it down

Never been seen again

But back when a ball was in-between my feet

The man in front of me was always getting beat

Felt dad was a little more proud of me

Back when I was like 13

Funny when you were someone you'd like to be

Maybe this all inside my head yet

Maybe that's all that makes it real

(Tell myself that it's no big deal, It mattered more to those that I shared the field with in the end

In the, in the, in the end)

Most nights I take meds to get to bed but they can't cleanse or end this regret

(Tell myself that it's no big deal, deal)

It's only cos we went so hard last night that's these thoughts are in my mind like

I couldn't sleep so I daydreamed

About what may be

Feels like I can't make peace

With that fed up little kid

Chest stuffed up with emptiness

So hollow in the middle

A bagel coated in skin