losing somebody Lyrics

I feel like I'm losing somebody

It's a feeling I'm all too familiar with

I feel like I'm losing somebody

And I don't know what to do

The more I become, the more I have to lose

The more I become, the more wisely I need to choose

I can't tell if I've been changing for the better

But I know I've changed for good

For someone so afraid of falling

I love more than I should

Start to believe that I deserve to bear the things that broke me down

And if there's any goodness left in me, I've lost sight of it now

I bleed myself on purpose just to make the pain believable

And I'm so fuckin scared that I deserve the things that made me beautiful

Did I deserve the things that made me beautiful

All I've ever known is screaming and crying

And punching the walls till my knuckles start to bleed

And all I've ever done is hope to get better

And pray that the pain would make something out of me