Closure Lyrics

I got a lot I wanna say

A lotta things on my mind that just ain't what they used to be

I feel I saw you just the other day

But I never worked up the courage to say the things I gotta say

I guess I'll start with an apology

I'm sorry I couldn't be the me you used to see

That you hold disdain for me

That when everything was said and done you hated me

And I'm sorry that I couldn't possibly have made you be

More of a twisted bitch, you reveled in my misery

When everything you did to me, was purely contradictory

And I'm sorry that I couldn't be stalwart with my injuries

I guess that was your victory, but now that's ancient history

I hate that I still wonder if you think of me

You said that over time this would get easy

But after all these years I still feel queasy

If you had the chance, would you free me

Each and every little bit of this I hate

You're like an itch I cannot scratch inside my brain

I wish we could've found a way to work it out

But after all we did, I get it a bitch don't change

And now I gotta find a way to satiate this pain

Suffocate the flame and put it out with rage

Kill a little piece of me and see if I'm the same

Now that you'll never come around again

It's closure that I'm after, but the wounds won't heal

Every echo of our past is a scar I feel

In the darkness of my mind where your memory sleeps

I search for peace, but it's buried deep

It's closure that I need but it slips away

In the silence of the night I still hear you say

That you cannot stay and just need some change

Then you walked away, and left me with my pain

I know I'm sounding pretty conflicted

It's because I wanna hate you but you played the victim

I guess it doesn't matter now

I doubt anything you do will ever satisfy you anyhow

It's funny how it all worked out

Better that I never got a chance to change your mind

Or even say goodbye

I guess that's something I can rectify in this rhyme

But still I wonder, late at night

If you're haunted by the past and the endless fights

If the memories of us linger in your mind

Or if you buried them deep, left them all behind

I'm sorry that I couldn't see the warning signs

That I couldn't read the lies hidden between the lines

I hate that I still care, enough to bring tears to my eyes

I try to move on with my life

but you're the thorn forever in my side

Each and every sleepless night I curse your name

You're the ghost that haunts my thoughts, drives me insane

I wish I could erase the past, just hit delete

But every time I try, it's like I face defeat

So now I drown in anger, suffocate the pain

Bury every memory deep inside my brain

Kill a little piece of me and hope I'm sane

Now that you'll never come around again

It's closure that I'm after, but the wounds won't heal

Every echo of our past is a scar I feel

In the darkness of my mind, where your memory sleeps

I search for peace, but it's buried deep

It's Closure that I need, but it slips away

In the silence of the night, I still hear you say

That you cannot stay and you need some change

Then you walked away and I was never the same

I'm still searching for an answer, learning how to change

I know in all the pain you caused me I can find something to gain

In my search for closure, I crushed everything I feel

Now I'm replacing all the broken bricks with steel