excuse me how does this end? Lyrics

I wish I saw the future,

I wish that I could tell me how it ended;

If I could go back in time to tell me I woulda done it;

I wonder if I get tired of this running from my feelings and myself

And if it helps to go our separate ways;

Sick of all these demon days,

And start to wonder doing crime pays.

And if I'll always be a wage slave;

Crying through my weekdays;

Losing all my sleep days;

Times forget to eat days.

I wonder if we fell in love or wrote a diss track;

Happiness, I miss that;

Wonder in the future that I'm happy with a miss that;

Treat me with the love and the respect that I'm deserving.

I wonder when I die if I'm seeing heaven or I'm burning.

I wonder if the present is a gift and that I'm wasting all these years and that's my fear is that I don't amount to nothing and I stumble to the mezzanine.

Or if I see myself in magazines.

And if our congress sees a guillotine;

I wonder if I'm something,

I wonder if I'm not.

I wonder if I'm overseas or living in a country where the language isn't something that I know,

But even still I go,

I wonder if there's you and me,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I wonder if there's you and me;

Wonder what there's new to see;

I wonder if I grow to being happy;

Or I'm soon to be;

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

But scared to see my future so I'm hesitant.

Time was wasted negligent.

Words I say I never meant.

Wonder if I'm having family dinner times;

Wonder if white boys are still wearing shorts in the winter time,

Cuz I'm already cold enough;

Wonder 'bout my future self and wonder how he's holding up.

Wonder if I,

Changed enough to make my friends get out of touch and we're not even having small talk or texting;

And act fake;

Like wrestling;

Or crypto investing;

And bad chicks are resting;

In bed in my bedroom;

She give top;

That's headroom like.

I'm thinking I need some time.

To get me some peace of mind.

I wonder if lifting gonna tear apart these knees of mine,

I wonder if I changed,

I wonder if I changed,

I wonder if I changed,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I wonder if there's you and me;

Wonder what there's new to see;

I wonder if I grow to being happy;

Or I'm soon to be;

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,

I really wanna know,