the end Lyrics

Only reason i've been grinding

Is to pay off my own death

I can't move, I can't get up

So i'll just lay here in my bed

Whats the point of trying

If its never with success

I don't want my stomach pumped again

So I might make a mess

I would take my life today

But i still can't tie a noose

I don't wanna kick the chair away

And have the knot come loose

I can't do that shit at home

Cuz i don't want no one to find me

I would go out in the forest

And stare at the sun to blind me

Then i'd probably close my eyes

And I know i'd be in pain

But i'd try to think of all the struggles

That i'd take away

But in taking my own life

I'd make some others harder

What about my sister? And my girl?

And my father?

Would they blame themselves

for what i hate to be

Well i've written them 100 notes

In which i couldn't speak

And i'm telling you the truth

I ain't cried in years

But why is it the notes on my phone

Se all my tears.