Death Over Life Lyrics

Death is over life, so nothing becomes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take? I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

Death is over life, so nothing becomes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take? I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

Destined to see a coffin, I'm drinking my life away

Silence from all directions, show me to the gate

Playing Russian roulette with a full pistol loaded

Turning my back on people who be crying just to hold me

Daily depression, my mental state so over tested

Don't see no blessings, breaking me down, shit, I'm stressing

Comes down to the place I'm living, but I'm far from home

If it don't matter what I think, I think you want me gone

Waking up so disappointed for the fact I'm breathing

Then walk the earth feeling cursed, I'd rather be beneath it

$20, $20, $20 is all I need

Show me the bottle

Forget the consequences you mention

Ignore the issue, you think it's for pleasure

But I do it to forget you

No memories is the only way I see the future

Blinded so long, heart of stone like I saw Medusa

Death is over life, so nothing but comes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take, I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

Death is over life, so nothing but comes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take, I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

There is no looking back, so do not forget the flowers

Put on your black outfit and hit me back in a hour

Alone, my heart racing while rushing right to the finish

Wanna check on my status, give me 59 minutes

I'm thinking, I'm drinking

Looking for an easy way, stupidity, it sinks in

But fuck it, I don't wanna pray

Where am I going from here

Going to heaven or hell

Pressure is building and building

Gonna break, I gotta yell

My mind will say I'm destined to go

Everything good in my life, I'm never destined for more

Feeling asleep but I'm woke

Picture my life as a boat

Rapidly sinking to the bottom

Cause it's leaving me low

Looking to overdose, but I already did that before

Remember when I popped a bottle

Took like nine in a row

Woke up to people laughing

Cause they probably think it's a joke

To guarantee that I ain't playing

Load up the 44

Lights out, now it's too late to tell you how sorry

I feel it's like a movie

But better believe it's real

Rain falls, family and friends around my body

Closed casket from all the tragedy I embodied

Mamas down on her knees, my wife is fighting and screaming

Daddy shaking his head while trying to fight off the demons

Wind blows, tips over my displayed picture

My sister, picks it up and she whispers

Brother, I miss you

Thunders ignored, while it pours and it pours

Gotta see me one last time, can't take anymore

Wife opens the casket door and she cries

Dear Lord, take me without him

I can't live anymore

Reaches into her Micheal Kores

Looking for a weapon

Nail filer won't do the job

But she can't accept it

Everybody comes to her side

Just hoping she'll calm down

As they hold her, they see a rainbow in the distance

Light breeze, the clouds open

Sun shines in the sky

They hear, I'm in a better place

But can't make up a reply

I'm crying with ya

But yet I'm smiling at the same time

Cause God granted me one last chance to say bye

Death is over life, so nothing becomes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take? I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

Death is over life, so nothing becomes of living

Finding a way to end it while saying, Father, forgive me

How much can I take? I can't do this for long

I'm losing my way, so please carry me home

Carry me home