confession #1 (thus) Lyrics

Thus, uh

Put 300 thou' on his head, that's a plus, uh

Well I guess a minus cuz he finna be some dust, uh

Let it blow in the wind, I need some gust, uh

That's ironic cuz I'm smokin' on that gust

Yeah, I'm smokin' on that kush

Hidin' it from the ones I love

Cuz I don't want them see me like that, but I'm doin' it for us

Do you know you gon' meet the dove

Do you know you death you can't duck

You gon' miss out on being able to marry beloved

Man I already know, check all the above

Told you I'd stop, but I lied about it

Later on that night, I had to cry about it

Cuz it hurt me lyin' to you, ball out my eyes about it

I'm really bad at this life shit, wish I had a guide about it

Nobody else got my back, I know at least a God got it

These lil hoes be tryna take my heart, but they don't know my bride got it

But they should know about now, I don't like to hide about it

This life shit get tough, I just wanna get high about it

So I am blind, I start to roll up mines

Talkin' bout my feelings, put it to the sky

Flick the lighter a couple of times until I see a light

Then I put it to the blunt, the room start to light up

Then I see the gas and my demons start to collide

Then I kiss the blunt, look in the mirror and stare deep in my eyes

And I see a boy lost and afraid, just tryna hide behind a wall of toughness

But then my pain slip by

I ain't wanna go down this path, mama I tried

But it's like my pain and my suffering kept grabbin' at me, tryna pull away my life

So I gave in, took the do-not and embraced it

Thought about all the times I said I would never as I take it

Start thinking about this for the better, I try to save it

But as I start indulging, my sanity, I wave it

And as I start smokin', the room get clouded

It's just me in the room, so why the fuck do it feel crowded

It's all of my demons, they came in unannounced

But then the angel on my shoulder started tryna help a nigga out

I start to put the shit down, and take another route

But then I start to realize, it's a one way, one way down

Down, down, down, down

It's a one way down

Yeah, I'm smokin' on that gust

Yeah, I'm smokin' on that kush

Hidin' it from the ones I love

Cuz I don't want them see me like that, but I'm doin' it for us

Do you know you gon' meet the dove

Do you know you death you can't duck

You gon' miss out on being able to marry beloved

Man I already know, check all the above

Told you I'd stop, but I lied about it

Later on that night, I had to cry about it

Cuz it hurt me like a to you, ball out my eyes about it

I'm really bad at this life shit, wish I had a guide about it