58 Pills Lyrics

I've seen the worst of you

Guess what I'd still pick you

No one loved you more in life

She wasn't strong enough

I thought she was strong enough

I thought she was strong enough

Get to the hospital quick

I'm on my way

She just took 58 pills of some Tylenol

I'm just praying for her to be safe

I just went over 100, the cops pulled me over

The hurt is written on my face

They let me go even though I should've been arrested

No misdemeanor, I got an infraction

I prayed to God with my all

And saw how some of my actions were flawed

I saw how I fought fire with fire

Her flames were Zuko but mine were much hotter, Azula

I should've forgiven sooner but I enjoyed

Being a ruler

Plus I felt like it was her turn to suffer

I tried to get even

I should've just loved her

And burdens were falling on me

How could I live with the guilt

I'm the last one she talked to and now she's ODing on pills

All of her family would blame me and I'd blame myself

And I know that I shouldn't but I know myself

Man I crumbled and cried with my mom by my side

Man, I reached out to God, it was no time to hide

Look, the devil is real and it morphed into 58 pills

And it morphed into me and the anger I felt

My words were swords from the daggers of hell and her skin was just paper

I wanted some justice but God told me later

Would read the Bible but run from the Savior

I knew what to do but my pain told me hate her

I can't neglect God's teachings she was trying so hard to follow God's path

And I was being hypocritical and not following God's path

And then acting like I was the saint and she wasn't

And that's wrong of me, that's wrong of me

I took advantage of a woman and then now she may never come back

God, please, God

Please, oh please

She's a good girl, God

Give her some more time on this earth

Have you ever done these things

Traveled to Ireland, see the Eiffel Tower

Inspire the poets and writers, the Van Gogh Museum or any Museum

Tell your life story with no interference

A Sakura tree, when the beauty just peaks

Or a Japanese sauna a concert of Lan Del Rey

What about helping a child who ain't got a father or a mother

Never felt love even when she was younger

Attended school but got bullied, abused

Not only physically, sexually too

Needed someone who related like you

But you tried to leave at 20 years of life

Now she won't grow up with no one by her side

Thought we were supposed to foster a couple kiddos

How could I do that on my own

When you the one who planted the idea in my dome

Now you scared of dying, repenting

The charcoal you drinking is making you throw up

Used to seek pain with the blade and the cuts that it made

Now you're going through worse than emotional pain

See your life drifting, you hate your decision

You cling on to life, attempted suicide

Doctors don't know if they can save your life

You call out to God, cause I'm not by your side

I'm downstairs, won't let me see you tonight

Called the nurse about eight different times

Till she got pissed and hung up the line

Called the next day about six and nine

I was so scared that they'd tell me you died

But I got the best news, you would be alright

I got the best news, you would be alright