golden boy (live) Lyrics

When you said it

Did you think you'd mean it?

And when you left here

Did you regret it?

I say I'm doing better, but only if I lie

Or scream into my pillow late at night

I've been seeing flashes of you in my brain

Every time I breathe in air

I've been self-reflecting, writing shitty hooks

Went to a bar and I got overlooked

I'm always second-best or the worst of the worst

Yeah, it's a curse

Do you feel shame when you hear my name?

Or does a smile creep up on your face

You golden boy,

You favorite child

Picked me up and tore me right apart

I guess I should be grateful

You deemed me as your biggest prize

You golden boy,

You favorite child

I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night

Picture-perfect family hung up on your walls

You tell me you're your dad's son

A big black heart

Oil running through your veins

You're a full machine

I wish I had known that

Before you pulled the trigger on me

Do you feel shame when you hear my name?

You golden boy,

You favorite child

Picked me up and tore me right apart

I guess I should be grateful

You deemed me as your biggest prize

You golden boy,

You favorite child

I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night

But I hope you sleep at night

And I hope you dream

Dream of me

You say I "made a mistake"

and I'm the one "giving it up"

But I'm not the only girl that you buried in your backyard

Just because you didn't punch me in the gut,

Doesn't make you a good person

And I'm the only one

That'll dig herself out

Do you feel shame when you hear my name?

You golden boy,

You favorite child

Picked me up and tore me right apart

I guess I should be grateful

You deemed me as your biggest prize

You golden boy,

You least favorite child

I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night

Favorite child