NEVER MADE IT TO CHRISTMAS ft. Fyelow Lyrics

Everything keep getting realer and realer

It's making it easy to see

Everything we couldn't be

I guess it was realer to me

We never made it to Christmas, but I had a gift for you under the tree

I used to pray for your ease, now I just pray I don't see you

Now I just pray it was growing pains

Hit the dope, treat it like my novacane

Whole lot of shit I never overcame

I don't wanna see you we don't go the same

I ran out of time for hope lil baby

Outta the lines, you drove me crazy

See every ring I'm like "Hell naw"

But you know Ima answer that shit and I hate it

And shorty it's crazy if you think I dont love you

It's only my lil brother that's above you

If you ain't gon' love me or leave me forever

Then leave me alone, I don't want nothing from you

I'm doing stupid shit, I'm going dumb

If I ain't workin just know that I'm numb

Tryna do better foreal

But I don't recognize exactly what I have become

Girl I done been through too much

I don't got time for rumors

Man, I still hate myself

But I never trade life for new one

I'm learning to keep my own company

The money get boring it's under me

It's better to feel all the pain

At least then I ain't worried about wondering

At least then I ain't worried about shit

Foreal

Mmm, I say

Outta the lines, you driving me crazy

I can't keep control of the wheel

I ain't peep the signs, shit ain't been the same in a while

I still got your gift in the closet

I wish that I didn't, cause there ain't no place for it now

I really ain't trying to go out, I might run into you

Think it's best I just stay in the house

She get to asking what happened

I get to acting the maddest

You really already be knowing the answer,

And I can just tell this shit by your reaction

I'm a fiend

You took it as that, but that ain't what it mean

I say I might give it a week, then I try spin the block

Cause I really don't want you to leave

We was like Kobe and Shaq

If it wasn't for beef then you prolly be wearing a ring

I see you still wear all the shit that I bought you

Remember them nights you wasn't wearing a thing

This story got no happy ending

Cause after that shit we had ran out of pages to read

Girl I done been through too much

I don't got time for rumors

Man, I still hate myself

But I never trade life for new one

I'm learning to keep my own company

The money get boring it's under me

It's better to feel all the pain

At least then I ain't worried about wondering

At least then I ain't worried about shit

Foreal