How It All Started Lyrics

Yeah, I wanna be a millionaire

VIP and private jets gliding in the air

Champagne with slight tending to some dinner care

Big bucks to give back and still have some to spare

But instead I had some bad affairs

I fucked with girls I wasn't supposed to, we imperfect pairs

Ain't my fault you ain't have a spark to ignite the flare

Ain't my fault you stop feeling because I never care

Except the feeling of hurting ma makes me nauseous

I wish I could just take back them moments that I drawed

Uh, yeah, Queen Latifah always told me take precaution

I ain't talking set it off, I'm talking my own monarchist

Yeah, young prince but I'm kingin' it come this morning

When Im made as a man of my word, heeding all my warnings

Some father traits passed genetically that I'm afraid of

He hard-headed and had seizures, it was complicated

The complicator met a flower that of different flavor

But her flavor went unsavored when he bruised her nature

Now her love for him becoming faded

Stress levels and the arguments accumulated

The young seed heard it all but couldn't fumigate it

He was born to be loved but by others, he was hated

Now the mother debating if her son is forsaken

He just want a second chance, he don't want to live ancient

And by ancient I mean struggle, ain't no money waiting

I had no money so my swag was down, honey's hatin'

I love my brothers, they right next to me, they stayed adjacent

And they petty foul you back if you pull a flagrant

Only talent was for music, ain't no question about it

I was rusty starting off, plenty others doubted

Said I wasn't fit for it, mm, left me out and counted

I got older, my flow changed, it's so astounding

Dropping jaws, they in awe now

Play mode with these beats, ain't no pause now

My heart is broken, you can tell I got a flawed sound

I been through hell and back, don't ever tell me calm down

Nigga, it all started cause my father wasn't there for me

Or here for me, he ain't even get to care for me

And now I'm older and my heart been getting colder

And that cancer getting to him cause he wasn't drinking carefully

It all started cause I had a different mindset

R.I.P. all of my homies that got they minds swept

I go strong for your family if your mom wept

This whole world's gone to shit where y'all mind's at

Deep down in the gutter where the rest of them at

You gon' be just like them boys that be robbing for Saks

And by 25, if I'm still in the same spot

Then I'ma turn to pharmaceuticals and leave it at that

I ball my heart out with this rap and we can leave it at stats

And if you ever need some proof, we can leave it at rap

Or we can leave it at that

One time for my niggas locked up in the cell

I just wanna get my family outta hell

Before I took a dub I had to learn how to fail

Now I'm consistent with winning and I exhale

Expel the frauds and imitations of the real

Keep around the ones that tell you genuine material

If you living off of shame or you going through the rain

And you really wanna change then it starts in the mirror

One time for my niggas locked up in the cell

I just wanna get my family outta hell

Before I took a dub I had to learn how to fail

Now I'm consistent with winning and I exhale

Expel the frauds and imitations of the real

Keep around the ones that tell you genuine material

If you living off of shame or you going through the rain

And you really wanna change then it starts in the mirror