what I've been running from Lyrics

If I close my eyes

If I close my eyes

I'm not here

If I close my eyes

If I close my eyes

I'm not here

I'm not here

I'm not here

If I close my eyes

If I close my eyes

I'm not here

I'm not I'm not I'm not

Back to where I started

My dignity departed

Sacrifice my health for the wealth in the garden

Preaching 'bout the mental

But myself

Is a problem

Call me hypocrite

Yes I am

Haven't got a clue

Still a kid

No I'm not

Pulling the strings of my hoodie to a knot

Tie my loose ends together let them rot

Collect my thoughts

Straight from the plane

To the hospital

Almost broke up with my girlfriend also

Could have lost two gens within a day or two

Life ain't like a game you can pick and choose through

Enter my conscious

Suppressing my nauseous

If I open that door

Might end up in a coffin

Things are looking grave

For my mental state

Will I be afraid

I don't have to be controller

I can take the rollercoaster down and go up

I can throw up

I can dirty myself in n out

I just know myself

I don't have to cope by hiding issues on the highest shelf

No more up on the pedestal

Eat away like I'm Hannibal

Read the book but never write

Even though I feel inspired to

What a stupid question

Of course life is a blessing

I just know it's real

And it puts you in a testing

Try being selfish

You are not a angel

Put on take off your wings

Look a different angle

Walk round like a stranger

Sonder makes your mind full

Watch who you reply to

You should read a bible

If I open eyes

If I open eyes

I'm right here

Inside my mind

If I open eyes

If I open eyes

I'm right here

I'm right here

I'm right here

If I open eyes

If I open eyes

I'm right here

Right here