Expensive Pain Lyrics

You know it's another day in the studio, weed smokin', double cup sippin

Man, I was thinkin' bout how far I came, how much shit I had to face, how many sacrifices I had to take

It's like, man, this pain is expensive, even when I get everything I deserve, shit ain't gonna be nothin' that I lost, for real

Okay, this expensive pain, what you know bout abusin' drugs so you can stay sane

What you know bout abusin' drugs so you can hide the pain

What you know bout takin' risks, goin' against the grain, yeah

These drugs don't heal pain,

I done been through the storm, walked in the rain

Made it out barefoot, still I can't complain, fueled by the pain, turned into champagne

Valet park the green, bentley mulsanne, been manifestin' for some years, I'll obtain

Fucked up, chemical imbalance in my brain, fucked up, chemical imbalance in my brain

Overthink everything, a conscious being, living forced to maintain

Vampires, leave me drained, suck my energy, then disappear like David Blaine

Life's smoke and mirrors, nothin' real, it's a shame, seen the bigger picture, kept my mental in frame

Always knew I'd be poppin', never cared for the fame, poverty kept us shackled, felt like we

were stuck in chains

Grew up no money, mom chasin' chicken, no canes, me and my brother wore hand me downs, clothes had stains

Single mother raisin' two kids all on her own, late night pursuin' dreams, tryna find us a home

I grew up hard, makin' struggle meals at night, mom couldn't afford bills, use a candle for some light

Holes in my socks, walkin' around, holy tonight, no Kool-Aid, sugar and water, quench my thirst tonight

Check the pantry, there's SpaghettiOs, feast tonight, sit and say your grace, raised with manners, be polite

Elementary, rebel against the system, caught a couple fights

Constantly makin' wrong decisions, shit never felt right, man

My life been hard, but it had to be, demons leechin', devil stuck, gotta shake him off of me

Dealin' with anxiety, live in fear, battle in my mind, stuck in a karma cycle, feel like a song on rewind

Satan wants my soul, and God's fightin' for my mind, serotonin low, pop a XO-pill, now I'm fine

Still grievin', thought they said pain heals with time, evil thoughts been runnin' through my head since nine

Do I wanna catch a, or keep peace of mind

All this trauma done really fucked up my mind

Shed multiple tears for these blessings I've claimed, all these temp tears leave permanent stains

This is expensive pain, what you know about

abusin' drugs so you can stay sane,

what you know about

abusin' drugs so you can hide the pain,

what you know about

Takin' risks, goin' against the grain, yeah

These drugs don't heal pain, I done been through the storm, walked in the rain

Made it out barefoot, still I can't complain, what you know about real pain