2 am Lyrics

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I think about how I fake

Or force most of my emotions

That might explain why

I'm so socially awkward

And why I tell girls and my co-workers

And my dead friends to

Fuck off

All of them are fools

Myself included

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I think about how I try to fit in

How I want to belong

How I want to be one of the boys

How I want to be loved

How I want to love

How I want to be human

And feel human

In all ways except physical

And how much easier life would be

If I had just been

Born away

From my thoughts

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I think about all the diagnosis that have been thrown at my face

Bipolar

Schizophrenic

Schizoid and

Depressed

At this point

I just consider it

Name calling

But I have

A much better diagnosis

That requires no antidepressants or

Antipsychotics

I've self-diagnosed

As an asshole

(Good for you)

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I think about how I fantasize about

Death and suicide

That Lady Death is my mistress

One shy kiss away from setting me free

From all this boring routine that we call life

Work

Relationships

Eating

Fucking

Sleeping

Talking and living

All of which

I do very little of

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I wonder how much better life would be for those around me

If I had just been locked up in some loony bin

And stayed there for the rest of my days

In a way

In a way

I'm locked up in this madhouse

That some call my mind

Alone in a dark room at 2am

I just write

and breathe

and think

and finish

this poem

This album is a work of fiction

Yet it is based on a true story

Includes mentions of God

Death

Suicidal tendencies

Self-harm

Love

And

Many more

It's better taken with

A glass of water

After 2 o'clock in the morning

With an enthusiastic

Mindset

The side effects are

Weight gain

Drowsiness

Impending sense of doom

Euphoria

Spiritual enlightenment

Explosive mental diarrhea

Rock and roll

The great sense of

What the fuck did I just listen to

Or

Even the

This is the greatest shit I've ever listened to

To the

Meh

I don't know