Coffin Practice Lyrics

It wasn't my choice to die

Whenever my soul survived

Casting a spell

It's breaking a vail

And casting my ropes to fire

Everything that I missed

Everything that I was

Everything that I never could be

All the meaning that never meant much

Everything that I had to be

I created a masterpiece

I took back half my life

And I left behind that half of me

Some say it's happenstance

But I never really had a plan

I just closed my eyes and I fell back right to the arms of providence

Open my eyes and it starts

Calming watching it come from afar

Comatosed and I kind of want to learn what I design and align with the stars

A utopia look like a threat

Cornucopia looks like a mess

And from where I'm residing

I'm indecisive of what could end up in regret

White blank check

Bet, what's next?

And I could tell you every story ever told, but I just don't know where to start

You know I hate to compromise but sometimes I'm too scared of whats inside my heart

And if I hate me can you blame me? All this pain can tear your senses right apart

These days I know it in my bones, I been here long enough to restart

It felt a lot like a lobotomy

Hit a wall and I got caught, and at the worst I lost the God in me

Somehow I made it to the other side

Was broken by the demons that I had inside, thank God I made it out alive

And here I am at the starting line, twenty-nine

Sodding seeds to seize what I can be without a compromise

I know it's do or die, coffin practice I surmise

In times I pray to stay the same is when my wants were falsified

Told my loved ones "leave me be" when season had me cauterized

Left my feet and caught a ride, soaring through the open sky

I've tried to sanctify my intellectual property

Glory to the minds that trade perception for autonomy

But you makes plans for life outside of what your strength allows

It feeds into itself a preservation for your broken vows

But it can be a tale you told from when they both dropped

A bind that you can hold on, a sign to make it all stop

And I could tell you every story ever told, but I just don't know where to start

You know I hate to compromise but sometimes I'm too scared of whats inside my heart

And if I hate me can you blame me? All this pain can tear your senses right apart

These days I know it in my bones, I been here long enough to restart

A thousand worlds away

I would have made you stay right here

and when I let it go

Although I'd never know

Just where I'm meant to be

You never wanted me to know