auburn flags (demo) Lyrics

The leaves fallin, tears dripping, autumn evening

I feel a difference in the air, a change in season

My eyes widen, can't find help, eternal bleedin

Shade of auburn flags feel I've hit the deep end

But I depend for life to work out

Yearn to see my kids grow, but that's my first doubt

On my mental I see a man that's burnt out

Tired of playin' victim to the red south

He washed out his mouth and prayed to the holy priest

Prasin' the lord, all his family had been deceased

Praise the lord for all the good that he's done

Though the man witnessed the death of his first son

And from that day his emotions had gone bleak

He'd barely speak for months

Though he heard pleads from his wife

Beg him to be there for support so she could sleep

But he was scared what the world could see

So that's a closed book, she filed for divorce

And that took almost a year

But there's no sense of remorse

No regret for the nights, he'd scream and shout at his wife

They had a child in sight

A pregnant mother tryna fiend for her self

Accustomed wealth, middle class

All her pain could be felt

Another deadbeat of a father, the cycle repels

The trauma dealt, I was in the womb

A child you never held

Had no idea this was my upbringing, a figure I've stopped seeing

First two months, no memory

Got me left clinging on to a troubled man

I fucking hate him but I understand

That's just the way god made us