Trial ft. Neatly Drawn Blinds & Jess Schmidt Lyrics

You taught me love is never free

That love is earned conditionally

I learned it was easier to nod and agree

Than to share

Share a piece of me

But I tried

I tried

Oh, where has it all gone

You left me in the dark

Wondering how

Wondering when

Wondering what I could have done

To save myself

So I tried

But it was never what you wanted

I tried

But it was never good enough

It was always a lie

That we lived for the outside

I tried

But I could never be you

In your golden castle

You sit, not wondering what you did

To cause me pain, only

When will I realize my mistakes

And come crawling on my knees

Saying mama please

Still I try

But it's not what you wanted

I try

But it's never good enough

It's still just a lie

That we live for the outside

So I'll try to never be you

Going off on my own

You made me choose

Will it be a life living free

Or life not living for me

You deceived me, mother

I believed you when you said

There was no other

You deceived me, mother

You only loved me

When I didn't choose another

Try to live life how I want it

I'll try, 'cause I know I'm good enough

I won't live a lie that I built for the outside

I'll try to never be you

I'll try

It'll be a life living free

I'll try

A life I'm living for me

I'll try

It'll be a life living free

I'll try

A life I'm living for me