PTSD Lyrics

A life without pain, I wonder what it feel like

I really wonder what it feel like

How I'm living now, can't believe that it's real life

When I'm not struggling sometimes it don't even feel right

Wanna live isolated somewhere out in South Dakota

Depending how this year go I think I still might

I carry all of this weight that don't mean it's real light

Robbed me of my innocence the day I went to

All these crazy things I done seen

In this city, not for the weak

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

Baby, you don't got what I need

'Less you turn these nightmares to dreams

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

I see pain in every street, I can't stay in the D

Women playing with my heart, the fellas playing for keeps

I be locked in so nobody safer than me

I was trying to play God now God playing with me

Because I'm losing my people

And they don't choose when to leave you

It all feel rooted in evil

Ain't nothing moving the needle

And they be moving illegal

So I just do what I need to

Now that this movie is ruined what we gon' do in the sequel?

(Shh, ha) It's comedy instilled with drama

(Shh, ha) I need a trip to the Bahamas

Look inside the mirror sometimes all I see is trauma

I hate when I do something and I can't go tell my mama

I hate when I do something gotta take it to the grave

I hate that I got free will and I still feel like a slave

I told two people and they never felt the same

So I promised that I'll never tell nobody else again

All these crazy things I done seen

In this city, not for the weak

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

Baby, you don't got what I need

'Less you turn these nightmares to dreams

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

Jumped in a gang as an adolescent

Gun in my hand as an adolescent

Locked up in a cell as an adolescent

You think you learned it all? Let me add a lesson

Ain't no love in this world, I know that's depressing

So stay away from people who got bad intentions

And for those who love you, know it's one in a million

And for those who don't know you, it's way up in the billions

When they look at you they see you as another civilian

Some might be feeling hot and then the others is chilling

Some cities got no crime and they loving the children

In my city, even kids do the clutching and killing

They be touching the scrill and

You don't know what they concealing

Got way too comfortable drilling

Cause there's no hugging and healing

And I pray every day that them things may change but they can't

Cause we treat it like it's nothing to deal with

All these crazy things I done seen

In this city, not for the weak

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

Baby, you don't got what I need

Lest you turn these nightmares to dreams

I think I got PTSD

I know I got PTSD

Wanna live isolated somewhere out in South Dakota

Depending how this year go I think I still might

I carry all of this weight that don't mean it's real light

Robbed me of my innocence the day I went to