Realest shit I ever wrote Lyrics

Yeah, you know, I'm finna rap about some real shit

Yeah, yeah, hold on, hold on

I used to wake up in my room at night

I hated the dark, I needed some light

In my head I was crying for help

I decided to go thug it by myself

Bad habits, I kept it under my belt

Type of shit make your mom heart melt

Got all my problems done with and dealt

I was praying to god I don't go to hell

Now I'm 15, making my own moves

Out doin drugs, ain't got nothing to lose

But now I realize I can lose my life

Someone can take it just out of spite

It's a realization I gotta live right

I know some kids that was dead by the night

I know some kids who got sent to the sky

I just need someone to help me get right

I get around people I never once taught

I listen in silence, I watch how they walk

Never write that shit down, someone pass me the chalk

Gotta work 9-5, gotta punch in that clock

My mama always said that I'm gonna grow up

But now it's that time that I gotta grow up

Now I wasted my time trynna do grown up stuff

But now I'm a kid who just gotta grow up

Couldn't get what I want so I started just robbing

Too much of my plate got my head hurt throbbing

Some nights I used to hear my mom sobbing

Gotta get to the top, gotta keep on climbing

My way to the top gotta keep on rhyming

If I get stuck at the bottom ima keep on slimin

Gotta get my mind right so there's no more crying

If my mom heard this shit she gon' break down crying

My mom oldest son I'm the man of the house

My mom always said I'm the man of the house

I started off young being the man of the house

Cause my dad wasn't there to be man of the house

Yeah my dad went to jail I started crying a lot

All of my pain it just stirred In a pot

Ain't telling nobody I'm hiding a lot

But nobody know that I'm crying a lot

But fuck that crying I ain't never shed tears

I put on my glasses and see through life clear

Yeah I've been through a lot ain't no man that I fear

I see y'all intentions I see through it clear

If y'all knew what I thought y'all might go shed a tear

I ain't trusting nobody these people move weird

The voice in my head y'all don't know what I hear

God is the only man I'll ever fear

Pray for the night that I see the light

Pray for the night I get hugged tight

Pray for the night my mind get right

Yeah I pray for the day we all get rich

I ain't never gon' trust any other bitch

Cause a bitch won't put diamonds on my wrist

Cause a bitch won't get me fucking rich

At the end of the day a bitch is just a bitch