Now What (Rough Demo) Lyrics

Does it even really matter

Rope and ladder

I sit by myself

Before a shotgun slug

Try no hard drugs

Just stick to top shelf

Woke up from being passed out

But still blacked out

Neck up on the tracks

Don't remember but I was told then

I got scolded

Benjamin pulled me back

Life is improved

Not improving

I'm fucking lost

And also losing

Life is improved

Not improving

And I'm still clean and stuff

But enough's enough

Until something breaks

And I still learned a lot

But miss the chaos

And weirdly miss my shakes

It gets hard to speak

I get so nervous that I can't laugh

So I just stay real quiet

Chain smoke smokes

Until my lungs collapse

Life is improved

Not improving

And I'm fucking lost

And also losing

Life is improved

Not improving

Life is improved

Not improving

I'm fucking lost

And also losing

Life is improved

Not improving