my soul feels somewhat empty Lyrics

I know I'm a dog cunt I ain't nice

Self destruction feels so right

Rainy days they come ago but the rain ain't left me my whole life

Breaking down I start a fight, when I break down I cannot lie

I Traumatised the ones I love

And hurt the one who really tried

Self destruct I hide away and drown it all with brain decay

Acid tabs, mdma I cooked myself its the price I pay

I feel pain from bad mistakes I didn't mean but they where made

I wanna try and fix it all but I'm still yet to find my way

I'm lost, I'm trapped, I feel confined

I'm stuck inside an abusing mind

I screamed, I shout, I cut up lines

I ripped my flesh up before your eyes

I pissed out blood at heavy rates

And idolised my own demise

I got my blood all on your face

And still these friends all call me kind

Not a soul can save me

I can only save myself

I killed the love you had for me

And threw away your help

I burnt down every bridge

We built and blamed my mental health

While I was getting help for it

You had nothing else

Baby its not fair I made you feel the way you felt

Ever since you left me I've been hiding in my shell

Maybe I can change myself before I go to hell

My soul feels some what empty

My soul is just unwell

I've gotten used

to losing my mates

But hey

That's all right with me

If they chose to

Go there own way

I will cheer them on rightfully

I've said many things

that I hate and regret

Running off emotions

I confine in my head

Motivation lacking

when I'm laying in bed

Burning out my passion

while I'm dreaming of death

I don't ever think, I don't ever think at all

Selfish mother fucker breaking shit and punching walls

Screaming at my lover then I'm ringing hear the calls

Built it up to high and now its further down to fall

Its the fall again

The fall is all I know

There's nothing in my soul again

Ever since I watched you go