scheherazade (part 1) ft. Ari Sage Lyrics

Shahrazad

Read me a story

And Tell me it will never end

Tell me we are two sides of a circle

That we are pigment

That this dystrophy is just an exhalation

Shahrazad

I have been in the city for too long

My soles is ache for brackish water

When the sistine was closed I prayed at the 7/11

I prayed in the bathroom

I closed my eyes and imaged the Febreeze was you and I

In the forest again

Shahrazad

Sing that bewitching song

My prose is lackluster

I can't bring you where I want

But you have always had a knack

For making me drift

Now I fall and crash with each step I take

The machine screams and there is rust in the rungs

Shahrazad

Tell me this isn't a pyrrhic victory

That the next moment too will be calm

That I have fought for a world that I will belong

That It was worth it to be tense for so long

That there is a crucible for all of this aimless ache

That I have been feeding it

That it has been worth all the nights in

All the nights circling

You told me everyone wanted to see me

But I stayed home and watered the plants

Because I didn't know if it was a trap

So I had to take my time with each drop

I stayed home too many nights

And there are pools in the dirt

And Puddles at the base of each meristem

And I am sorry

I am sorry I fucked you because it felt like yoga

I'm sorry I looked out the window the whole time

At the overwatered succulents

Because I didn't want to see my body

And I didn't want to fully be there

Because I am leaving in a month

And you have a face that I would prefer

Not to have burned in my retinas

I'm sorry I always found a reason to be busy during breakfast

I'm sorry I was never present

Something about your grip reaching past my numb exoskeleton

Made me hover

I wanted you to thaw me from afar

I wanted you to forget quickly

I'm sorry that you are many people

And that I love you

I'm sorry that I talk about myself to fill the space

I'm sorry I'm quiet about all the wrong things

I think it'd be better if I walked away

If I walked like the night I floated passed the brownstones until my skin was effervescent

I want to walk like when I couldn't even feel the air

The night I walked until my body wasn't real

Until I was drifting

Until I felt no pull

Which I didn't I swear

I was free that night

Until I looked down again at my body

It's immediacy

And again

Like now

Wanted to unspool