Restless Lyrics

I carry so much self-hatred

I burned all of my innocence

You're better now

How can I just let you go?

Because you're everything that I think about

And the only thing I can't figure out

Spiraling down into this black hole

In due time I'll do better in the next life

I don't want to lose sight of possibilities

Even if it means I'll drown

If I never lied and I trusted your judgement

Instead of learning this shit the hard way

When I tried, I knew it was way too late

Put the past behind

Now you're moving along

And I'm just wasting away

And I'm so scared that I can't change

While I sleep through the day

So I stay inside waiting on the outside

Restless in my head again

Inside waiting on the outside

Restless in my head again thinking

Over and over memories just replay now

I'd do anything to escape from this place

How did I end up alone with nowhere to go?

Why can't I just be grateful?

My struggles sounding just like a broken record

If I'm not careful I know this can get way worse

Cut all my losses because there's nothing to save

Spiraling in this black hole

I told myself I'd never need anyone

And now I'm fucking drowning

If I never lied and I trusted your judgement

Instead of learning this shit the hard way

When I tried I knew it was way too late

Put the past behind

Now you're moving along

And I'm just wasted away

And I'm so scared that I can't change

While I sleep through the day

So I stay inside waiting on the outside

Restless in my head again

Inside waiting on the outside

Restless in my head again thinking

I told myself I'd never need anyone

Once in a lifetime you get a chance to stand up and do what's right

Regardless if you get what you want

There's no telling our next chapter or if we're rewarded for if we fought

We had so much that we could do

Without you I don't feel aligned

I know it's not replaceable

And there's only space to grow

There's so much that I want to tell you

Proclamations left unsaid

But you seems better off it fell through

Put the past behind

Now you're moving along

And I'm just wasted away

And I'm so scared that I can't change

So I'll just stay the same and decay