foggy mirrors ft. Mxmento Lyrics

They ain't wanna speak to me

My folks they ain't believe in me

My sister hit my phone and said "aye bro you bet not quit on me"

I got you sis just let me preach

19 years of misery

Drinking way too much i wonder if i'm gon feel anything

I'm hurt but i won't mention it

This verse is like a remedy

I call up Enzo just so i won't have to face the pain in me

Tell me what you know bout flanking if yo momma hated you

Tell me what you know bout hating if yo dad is trading you

Moms and Pops was there but it felt like i was a shaping tool

And now i'm almost 20 woke as fuck but i won't aim for school

Wonder what the pain in me will cause if i just let it loose

I hate to talk about it but i wish i never loosened on the noose

Shout out Commas always making sure i'm strong and on the move

Shout out Hezzy always finding ways to get me in my groove

And shout out Enzo cause we been day ones since we was rocking school

I'm thinking back to all them days i was rapping about some tools

And now i'm rapping way too much about the way i'm feeling

And now i'm rapping way too much about the things i'm thinking

And i remember all those days i wished my ship would sink in

And now i'm wondering if i should ditch the things i'm feeling

From all the pressure that's on me

Can't go from what's expected

Honestly won't do shit this year dawg except win

It's understood that under this hood I'm protected

It ain't a flex juggin from a nest when it's yo friends shit

Really tried to turn around and say that they changed

Like they ain't resemble a snake wit a grin on they face

New mouth spitting an act but they intentions the same

From a shy kid to a quiet jit I stayed in my lane

I stated the truth bout myself and now they turning they head

Like they ever gave a fuck about a thing that I said

I wish em well but I'll leave the competition for dead

If I was like em I'd be in your mentions bitching instead

It ain't like that and I try to tell em that every day

I'm trying to escape and get away and pave a new way

That's a new road for a new mode in which imma stay

I'm on my own shit I'm on my grown shit like no shit

Right next to the kitchen and the liquors where I clock in

Right next to the mic and the computers where I lock in

Really I don't got no better option if I'm being honest

Entangled with my own mind tryna sift through topics

Of what to say I'm not rapping bitch I'm just talking

Whipping up these rhymes it's everyday that I'm chalking

A concoction of what will throw them bows in mosh pits

But never random fuck shit just to get me poppin

Honestly I'm overdramatic about the cash shit

A new check will have me doing backflips but

There's a reason why I get a rush just from taking action it's a high for me

Just like the pack is

I'm acrobating off these strategies

I'm counting all these calories

And by calories I mean them bucks in my account man

Didn't know that it was that deep

We run you up just like a track meet

Now watch me demonstrate

Watch me Alleviate

The pain of living in this life without no heaven's sake

I'm shitting on my peers so i guess thrones is what im born to take

These niggas always talking bout some money that they fornicate

They said my days are numbered wonder if i'll see the heaven gates

And this blood that's in my eyes you see im traumatized

I've seemed to visualize the place of my demise

I look up in the sky and then i wonder why

Told Mom i'm gon be a star I watched my talent rise

Told my folks that I'm on the rise and I got criticized

But they won't tune in to the song I make because it's real so set aside

The simple fact that most these niggas telling lies

So let's take the time to get back

All them notes and guns who did that

If them niggas gon run who get back

If it was the old me then it would've click clacked

Foggy mirrors clouds of trauma tell me who had did that

All these niggas wanting clout is how you get your shit snatched

The reaper to careers because ain't no nigga touching me

My versatility so deep that he just got swept under me

This breathing shit not fun to me

Myself is who is funding me

And niggas making fun of me

I spin your block your sun to me

I sit back and

I sit back and i think very often

How how would things be?

But then everyday i realize itit's me against myself

And i'm really all i got

You know?