what i'm afraid of Lyrics

Have I become what I'm afraid of

Have I become what I despise

Have I turned into my nightmare

Right here in front of our eyes

Calling me up, here we are now

Building me up when I'm breaking you down

I'd be a better person if I only knew how

Someone you'd pick in every crowd

Push you away, break you apart

Cause maybe it'll help my shattered heart

Always been the problem this isn't the start

Always been the toy that you discard

Have I become what I'm afraid of

Have I become what I despise

Have I turned into my nightmare

Right here in front of our eyes

Cause everyone sees right through me

But they only see to my facade

I can deal with ripping apart projections

But can't let them see that I'm flawed

I'd rather break myself to pieces

Than let anyone do it first

I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat

And dying just brings out my worst

Doing my best, kissing you right

Sleeping beside you happy at night

But nightmares always come out and bite

Worrisome thoughts are hard to fight

Trying so hard, staying so strong

Till something too heavy comes along

When I try to fight it it's already gone

And I end up thinking that it belongs

Have I become what I'm afraid of

Have I become what I despise

Have I turned into my nightmare

Right here in front of our eyes

Cause everyone sees right through me

But they only see to my facade

I can deal with ripping apart projections

But can't let them see that I'm flawed

I'd rather break myself to pieces

Than let anyone do it first

I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat

And dying just brings out my worst

Dying just brings out my worst

Dying just brings out my worst

Oh, dying just brings out my worst

I don't mean

To lash out

I'm out of

Control

I'm trying

To find myself

In the traits that I stole

But who am I

Cause it's taking its toll

Oh, who am I

Cause I've gotta know

Cause everyone sees right through me

But they only see to my facade

I can deal with ripping apart projections

But can't let them see that I'm flawed

I'd rather break myself to pieces

Than let anyone do it first

I'm drowning myself trying to stay afloat

And dying just brings out my worst