Through My Eyes Lyrics

If you step into my shoes

Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know

If you see it through my eyes,

Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go

Oh baby then you'll know

I woke up in the morning drenched in a cold sweat

Tears rushing down my face wondering when's my last breath

I never felt so scared in my life

When I'm walking around my body is completely numb to everything

I can't function, I can't study, I can't focus

I can't feel, I can't see and I can't dream

My body sweating my anxiety out the roof again

My mama in the other room sleeping as I can't contain the pain I'm feeling

It's so deep it hurts

I can't talk to anybody

Nobody appreciates what you do until you're dead and gone

I was never loved

I never had anyone to talk to goddamn

See the picture through my eyes, it ain't pretty as the skies

All I know is I'm alive, everything's gon' be alright, but

The pain hurts so bad I don't know how I'm gonna survive man

How am I gonna survive man

If you step into my shoes

Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know

If you see it through my eyes,

Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go

Oh baby then you'll know (yeah)

Fucking shit dude

Listen

You told me you cared about me, but you weren't interested

I showed you what I was and you didn't even listen girl

What ever happened to the gram I gave you

All I showed you was how I can make your life better, but you were scared

You didn't want me, we both knew that

Especially that other dude you were with last week

We made eye contact, you knew exactly what happened

I know you didn't care from the start, but my heart just fell right apart

You didn't have to lie to me, you could've told me the truth

I wouldn't be gripping on the mic and speaking up in the booth

Yelling and screaming so loud man this is really what I go through

Writing and crying as I think about you, damn

I'm subtracting my days instead of adding to 'em, that's how I feel

Disconnect from my peers, no one else can see the fear

As I wait for the right one

But what if she already came and I lost my chance and it's over

If you step into my shoes

Maybe then, maybe then a then you'll know

If you see it through my eyes,

Maybe then, maybe then you'll then you'll go

Oh baby then you'll know (Oh my god)

My anxiety is killing me, I can't breathe no more

As my momma sitting next to me believing in me

And she never wanted her son to be so hurt

Being thrown off the good world just so I can see the cruel world

Why are they doing this to me, why am I like this

Why do I need to take these pills so I can be a normal person

I don't feel normal, this isn't even right to me, fuck

Because I

I never understood the world that I was in last year

I never understood the way that I was

I never understood that I had the power to change the world, with just my voice

Man how selfish I was for letting myself go with all the problems I had

Hurting my momma, I know she can't take it

I know she never wanted her kid to dread life like this

All she ever wanted was a happy kid happy life but fuck

She gave me everything, she put a roof over my head

She made sure she put her life before me and everything

All I wanted was love, all I needed was someone to talk to and be with

Momma, thank you for always being there for me

Thank you for always being there when I was down

Thank you for always giving me the hugs and kisses I needed at night

But shit it looks like the results came in

Shit man

It's December 28th, 2018

I'm writing this song right now

'Cause I can't sleep at night

It's fucking two in the morning

I'm just sitting here, gathering all my thoughts

Tryna put this verse out for you

But it's just so hard for me

I gotta wake up so early tomorrow, fuck

God my life's a fucking mess dude

I don't know how I'm gonna go through it

At least this shit's helping me cope with it

It's fucken ABA forever

It's ABA forever

It's ABA forever