Loathe Lyrics

As I'm rotting away

Walking this passage, the cold blood assassin who don't have a face

My feelings unsettled, I stare at the devil and ask for a favor to not let me stay in this world I'm misplaced

What else should I say

I've encountered a taste of the sorrow and hate that I see

Elevate me to heaven to see all my brethren

Sit outside the gate of the fallen, wish I could withdraw who was taken too early

My cousin and brother have cursed me to think if I died right now I'd be feeling I'm doing the right thing

Is it the right thing

My life has been all a dream

To a point where there is not a scene

I feel like I can not be seen

But I've never misspoken

The rebel was chosen to speak with no notion

My thoughts have been relentless

What I say what I say and I meant it

But I question my word contradiction

All my thoughts in my head are just endless

Telling me what I am and what isn't

The other side of me is persistent

The demon in me has been winning

Applauding my voice in the distance

Calling me but I'm not listenin

The miracle mess that was born as a misfit

Disliked and disguised with my wrist slit

Taking the blame for what I didn't

The lives that were lost, I feel I was the cause

Till the day I'm done the pain will not be gone

I grieve for the ones I couldn't save til I'm inside my grave

This road is so lonely but I am the problem

The darkness surrounds me

Consumes all my consciousness

I respond to it by keeping all of it

All the solitude has my tolerance

Emotional stress in sequential order

I'm kinda bipolar

My hate has distaste

Got no love up above

My sadness is madness

The joy disappoints

Disgust is a internal must

I feel what I feel

So I loathe myself

And if you don't hear the things that I'm saying then I guess you never felt my presence in the first place

This is the uprise of my downfall so don't look so surprised when the hound calls

I've always hated myself and I blame no one else for the reason I am but the world has been merciless

Knocking me down, suffocating me, pounding me down til I drown

The good guy's in control right now

Time to sober up

Loathe the ones who's misguided me, tortured me, hated me, distorted me, resented me and all the above

I rock away slowly, the dark is not holy but it has awoke me

So please do not loathe me

My soul is not only

I'm trying to fix what is broken

I still loathe all my old sins

I'm trying to make me whole again