Lost Connections Lyrics

You was my brother for a time, there's no denying that

Shared our love for the rhythms, sonic acrobats

I wrote the raps, you would smash together symphonies

Make perfect hats, and the bass would flow so vividly

We planned some projects and you threw yourself into the mix

EQ the lows, we got high so we could feel the kicks

You clung onto me like a spider webbing spinnerets

Shared my lighter, let it singe when you placed your bets

For a moment felt like shit when I spent time with you

You was around and your attitude just fucked my mood

Judge my friends when they had different perspectives

Treat the others in my life like electives

I dreaded driving, seeing woods, I didn't wanna talk

Every time we got into it, felt it was my fault

I saw my brodie and the aura was so clear

Eye me down like an idiot with pimples in the mirror

I made decisions that still hurt me when I think about it

But your presence in my life just weighed me down, shit

I'm doing better, making music for myself

Self produced, mix and master, in this lane I'm black belt, uh

Even through, I miss kicking it and making songs

I had to cut my brother off so I could write some wrongs

Achieving peace when the chaos running wild

I'll grab the reins, let me walk another mile

You was my sister for a time, there's no denying that

FaceTime when I was bored, made a solid pact

I told you everything, my feelings and my secrets too

We weren't a thing, but platonic I was there for you

I taught you math, science, life and played some games with you

You gave me faith, "there's a lady out there made for you"

I called you tripping off a tab, I loved our conversations

And you helped me get a job after months of patience

Found some shit about me, ugly as the river waters

Tried to process things, but time only made it harder

Called me saying that our friendship couldn't last forever

I was crying cause till then you was my sunny weather

Freaking out, I tried everything to talk to you

Just one more chance, wrote some letters, hoped it'd get to you

You told me straight to my face that this had to end

Hit me hard, accept the fact I lost my best friend

Time has passed, doing better, learning newer lessons

Count my blessings, taking breaths just to manage stresses

Achieving peace when the chaos running wild

I'll grab the reins, let me walk another mile

You was confusing, I took chemistry to see your face

I couldn't understand the way you graded kiddos plates

My humor never seemed to land when I talked to you

And your insults pierced my soul, that time I wanted you

It was explained to me why we could never be a thing

Because of culture and your parents make the wedding ring

We got tacos and I learned about your way of living

It made me think about my freedoms and my younger sibling

Fast forward through some time, I had a spark again

And you told me to watch out for the tempt of sin

I didn't listen and I made some bad decisions then

I kept trying to connect through some messaging

You got a man now, I'm honestly so glad for you

You found a guy who can make you laugh and dance with you

I heard from birdie that you shun any sense of me

I say it's fine, but deep down it really bothers me

Saying honestly, I know the ways I hurt you

There's some portions that are fuzzy, but they hurt too

And I want to say sincerely from the lucid heart

That I'm sorry for the ways I tore you apart

Don't expect you to respond with some kind words

I just wanted you to hear it from the source first

Achieving peace when the chaos running wild

I'll grab the reins, let me walk another mile