lost my religion Lyrics

Tryna be easier on myself

Am I to blame for my mental health

Can't live up to my expectations

Maybe I might make a deal with satan

All of my steps have been met with pain

I am a shell of who I remain

So far gone lost my religion

Stare at the stove when I stand in the kitchen

Wonder what I would do in your position

Let go of the wheel just to see how it feels

Pourin up liquor and skippin my meals

Lookin to substances hopin to heal

I know bout darkness how quickly it grows

Nothing that happens is under my nose

Cherish my friends and forgive all my foes

Lessons I learned in this life I was chose

So when all is said and done I know I tried

Still I wish that you had made it through the night

We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes

Now your cosmic love is written in the sky

Got angels and demons that live on my shoulder

Here I thought that you'd stay until I was older

The thief of my joy and the root of my pain

How did you think that I'd go on the same

Thought we'd find pleasure

Ain't left us no letter

Yet this grief you brought me has helped me get better

I don't understand all these complex emotions

This tear that I shed but a drop in the ocean

A drop in the ocean of all of the rest

The waves overcome me but I do my best

The current is dragging

Yet here I'm still standing

I owe it to you now to honor your flesh

But when all is said and done I know I tried

(I know I tried)

Still I wish that you had made it through the night

(Made it through the night)

We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes

(No time for goodbyes no no)

Now your cosmic love is written in the sky

I swear I tried

I swear I tried

I swear I tried

I swear I tried

Least I

Least I know I tried